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In Love With Ghosts
In Love With Ghosts Bubbles so often says something that inspires me and this time it was "I have been in love with a ghost.....While pretending that everything was fine; while filling my calendar with things like trips and competitive sports and, and, and...I was hiding away just a little piece of my heart just in case. Just in case what? I am not sure." Except the difference with me is I haven't been pretending that much. Everyone knows I am in love with a ghost. I don't have the same problem one of Bubbles readers mentioned - that she took a while to realise she is awesome and any man would be happy to be with her. I don't know if I am awesome or not. If anyone thinks I am it must be pretty subjective, because there are lots more who think I am not. But I am okay with that - I know I don't always manage to do the right thing, but I am reasonably happy with my self image. And I always know there are women who would like to be with me. Usually my problem is wanting to be with them quite enough. I think that although I have always been open to giving someone a chance, I found it hard to meet anyone who I really wanted to actually take it! Because I think I have realized that in order to love me, you have to love the ghosts too. That isn't easy, in fact for a long time I thought it was impossible, but now I think I am beginning to see that it isn't. I have another post I want to write to follow this up, something also inspred by a Bubbles post, in which she asks why she has such a time travel fantasy - for her it is about wanting to going back and change her past - but for me it isn't so much that now, although it used to be maybe. For me now, it is more about wanting someone to know the whole me, at all ages, and about me wanting to know them too - the person I didn't know when they were young, and even more, the person they will become in the future, but all seen and experienced from where we are now. (There's a really good book that's sort of about that isn't there, lol. ) |
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Is there a book like that? Can you tell me the title please it might be a good read? Good girls go to heaven,....Bad girls go EVERYWHERE! I love to travel Come visit my blog tigger678902
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It is so hard, feeling that someone might feel differently about you if they could only see how you are now, but that they never will. But in a way I think that feeling can be positive, because it is a way of constantly confirming to yourself that the resolutions you have made are the right ones. Whenever I feel that hopeless sense of having missed the boat, I try to remind myself to stay with the positive resolutions, because after all, you want to be at your best, just in case another boat comes along, or even, miraculously, you do get a second chance after all.
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Is there a book like that? Can you tell me the title please it might be a good read?
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Actually, as well as the fantasy I have described and will soon describe some more, I do have yours too. To be able just to be there for a few minutes on one of those perfect days, to remember so intensly what it was like. This didn't sound sad to me at all, I understood it completely.
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It would be weird, but desperately exciting. But yes, experience makes you different. I wouldn't want to be without it.
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The book is called "The Time Traveller's Wife, by Audrey Nifeneger. It is the one I am reading in my profile picture, and one of my favourites. Basically it is a kind of science fiction love story, in which the characters know each other at various different relative ages. Most of it is really good I think, although it looses its way a bit in the middle, I love the first half and the end. Good girls go to heaven,....Bad girls go EVERYWHERE! I love to travel Come visit my blog tigger678902
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That's the thing isn't it - it makes you who you are. And that's a good thing if you like who it has made you. Sometimes though people find it has made them someone they don't want to be. Or at least to behave in ways they would prefer not to.
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Yes I think I've heard of it,...I've not seen the movie either, I've given up on Keith Richard's book and have been busy with various non-fictional managment theory books,...self help for managers,...how to do more achieve more be the gfearless leader you were meant to be,....a good sci fi love story could be just the ticket
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