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Will you come see me - Thursdays and Saturdays?
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Will you come see me - Thursdays and Saturdays? There's a reunion going on. I didn't know anything about it. There used to be a group of smart women bloggers who became close friends and helped each other through some tough times. One or two of them used to drop by here now and then. They were good fun too. And now they are back for a month to catch up with each other and see how the blogs are getting on. But how these blogs work and what they mean to you seems different according to the attention you are giving them. I know I find less and less time to spend reading new posts by people I haven't come across before; I don't flirt verbally as much as I used to, and I don't write much anymore. No wonder it seems different here. There is still a sense of community, but it is different, to my eyes anyway. I am absolutely sure that on here somewhere there are others marvelling wide eyed at the wonderful freedom of expression and cathartic effects from the judgment free understanding of others to be found here. I don't imagine Crosby Stills and Nash had AdultFriendFinder in mind when they wrote the song I was listening to, but the lyrics caught my attention. Because in many ways they symbolise things we find out in each other here. We create relationships, even with the casual comments we leave here and there, let alone with the people who become important to us. And they evolve. Reading about this "No Filters February," seeing the comments of people touching base with each other for the first time in a while - the first time here anyway - made me think about some of the interactions I have had with people here too. Some of them have moved on and I may never hear from them again. Some I am still in touch with, some not so much, some closer than ever. But, as CSN so evocatively describe in their song, relationships always change. Their words epitomise how I sometimes feel about things here. It's getting to the point, where I'm no fun anymore, I am sorry Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry out loud, "I am lonely." I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are. You make it hard. Remember what we've said and done and felt about each other. Oh baby, have mercy. Don't let the past remind us of what we are not now. I am not dreaming. I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are. You make it hard. Tearing yourself away from me now, you are free and I am crying. This does not mean I don't love you, I do, that's forever, yes and for always. I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are. You make it hard. Something inside is telling me that I've got your secret. Are you still listening? Fear is the lock and laughter the key to your heart and I love you. I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are And you make it hard. Lovely harmonies. And I know they don't mean it the way I hear it, but I always smile and think of you when they sing "You make it hard." Not. You. Obviously. |
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Wow. I mean thank you - that's a proper compliment. I guessed that when I checked back here I might have a comment from you, but I am surprised to find out how much what you have said here means to me. How about you don't stay away so long this time? Oh, and yes, I do know - my heart has been like that for a lot of my life. I'm getting used to it now I think, lol.
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I was going to comment but realized it's only Wednesday. I'll come back tomorrow...
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sooo you don't think of me making it hard,...I am crushed  Good girls go to heaven,....Bad girls go EVERYWHERE! I love to travel  Come visit my blog tigger678902
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 i've been told once or twice i make it hard (the meaning in the song). until now, it didn't sink in. hmm. Respond to every call that excites Your Spirit ~Rumi  ..
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I've always been a bit of blog creeper. I flitted through far more than I interacted with people. I don't have that kind of time anymore. I have found things to fill my life with, but this was just too good of an idea to pass up. The most important thing you can wear is the expression on your face!   
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One of my all-time favorite songs. And people do come and go. A blogger that I don't follow but group chat with on occasion has said that this place is a depot...not a destination. And she is right. As I've grown and worked through the things I brought with me to this place, I find that I think about leaving here more and more. But I have friends here now...some I keep in touch with offline, some not. Real or virtual...there is almost no difference anymore. However, my daily life is more demanding than it was when I joined the site. I didn't have any control over that, but it's my life now just the same. I have that song stuck in my head...and I thank you for that Dreamer.
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sooo you don't think of me making it hard,...I am crushed
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I've always been a bit of blog creeper. I flitted through far more than I interacted with people. I don't have that kind of time anymore. I have found things to fill my life with, but this was just too good of an idea to pass up.
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i've been told once or twice i make it hard (the meaning in the song). until now, it didn't sink in. hmm.
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One of my all-time favorite songs. And people do come and go. A blogger that I don't follow but group chat with on occasion has said that this place is a depot...not a destination. And she is right. As I've grown and worked through the things I brought with me to this place, I find that I think about leaving here more and more. But I have friends here now...some I keep in touch with offline, some not. Real or virtual...there is almost no difference anymore. However, my daily life is more demanding than it was when I joined the site. I didn't have any control over that, but it's my life now just the same. I have that song stuck in my head...and I thank you for that Dreamer. But yes, time, and I think need, (see my reply to sugar4you) are factors. I stay for friends too, and every now and then I find there is something I want to write about, and then at least I don't have to bother with opening up a new profile and starting again!
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i found out yesterday... that i really, really like making things hard.  just for the fun of it... simply knowing that it was something i did that caused it... was totally, umm... uplifting!  --Author Unknown
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The first line of that song expresses exactly how I feel about myself these days. It also reminds me of something that's very tangentially related to what people have been writing about friendships enduring and changing. In college, I had a bunch of friends in college who sang and played guitar. CSNY together, separately and in all their various combinations were played and sung often. About five years ago, I was at the beach with a few those friends and some of their children. I think we were playing cards. All of a sudden out of nowhere one of my friend's daughters, who was around 11 then, started belting out that song a capella - and we all starting singing along. Thanks for reminding me. *[blog charleyb223]*
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i found out yesterday... that i really, really like making things hard. just for the fun of it... simply knowing that it was something i did that caused it... was totally, umm... uplifting!
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The first line of that song expresses exactly how I feel about myself these days. It also reminds me of something that's very tangentially related to what people have been writing about friendships enduring and changing. In college, I had a bunch of friends in college who sang and played guitar. CSNY together, separately and in all their various combinations were played and sung often. About five years ago, I was at the beach with a few those friends and some of their children. I think we were playing cards. All of a sudden out of nowhere one of my friend's daughters, who was around 11 then, started belting out that song a capella - and we all starting singing along. Thanks for reminding me. Sometimes I think when you find yourself relating to that first line, you have to take a step back and tell yourself that it is up to you to get a grip and be different. But that is much easier said than done of course.
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gee... you mean there's some other sense to the word??!!  --Author Unknown
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gee... you mean there's some other sense to the word??!!
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lol  Yes... it was a humorous reference to the joy of causing an erection. lol  (ok, that was positively embarrassing...  ) in spite of all the mess and twistedness i've grown up with... there's a few things i always knew - I knew i was not difficult to live with, i knew i wasn't a drama queen although i did (and still do) enjoy undivided attention from someone i like, i knew if someone thought i was hard to live with or be a friend to - they were the ones with some kind of a problem. and the reason i know all that is because i'm exceedingly flexible and i hate conflict... but... that didnt' keep me from being exceedingly disobedient to my mom... lol so, she's the only one who whose life i made difficult. And my sister. oh... and i am intensely aware of my problems, so i know what kind of difficulties i DO cause...  and those i call friends are the folks who've continued to love me inspite of those things... which all adds up to... i'm the most loveable person in the world!  rofl  --Author Unknown
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I can remember a time when I needed to pour everything out of me... all the fear and shame and resentment and unworthiness that had been building up in me over many, many years. I've gotten most of it out now, and most of the wounds have healed. I still come here, though maybe not as often, when I need a fix. You probably know the history of that song, right, how Stephen Stills wrote it about his impossible relationship with Judy Collins? I like that. Elevate me... 
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lol Yes... it was a humorous reference to the joy of causing an erection. lol (ok, that was positively embarrassing... ) in spite of all the mess and twistedness i've grown up with... there's a few things i always knew - I knew i was not difficult to live with, i knew i wasn't a drama queen although i did (and still do) enjoy undivided attention from someone i like, i knew if someone thought i was hard to live with or be a friend to - they were the ones with some kind of a problem. and the reason i know all that is because i'm exceedingly flexible and i hate conflict... but... that didnt' keep me from being exceedingly disobedient to my mom... lol so, she's the only one who whose life i made difficult. And my sister. oh... and i am intensely aware of my problems, so i know what kind of difficulties i DO cause... and those i call friends are the folks who've continued to love me inspite of those things... which all adds up to... i'm the most loveable person in the world! rofl
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I can remember a time when I needed to pour everything out of me... all the fear and shame and resentment and unworthiness that had been building up in me over many, many years. I've gotten most of it out now, and most of the wounds have healed. I still come here, though maybe not as often, when I need a fix. You probably know the history of that song, right, how Stephen Stills wrote it about his impossible relationship with Judy Collins? I like that.
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The song and poem are both lovely ty for sharing hugs V Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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well... it so much easier to talk about my loveableness than it is to talk about... well....things that are hard to talk about. lol --Author Unknown
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well... it so much easier to talk about my loveableness than it is to talk about... well....things that are hard to talk about. lol
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The song and poem are both lovely ty for sharing hugs V
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OMG! lol =) You, sir, are being totally naughty! lol --Author Unknown
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OMG! lol =) You, sir, are being totally naughty! lol
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oh dear... i have no response to that! lol =) i think i'll close my eyes so my glint doesn't get in your way... lol --Author Unknown
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oh dear... i have no response to that! lol =) i think i'll close my eyes so my glint doesn't get in your way... lol
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oh, good. i can keep my eyes open then. it was kinda getting hard to not trip and fall all over the place with my eyes closed! lol --Author Unknown
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oh, good. i can keep my eyes open then. it was kinda getting hard to not trip and fall all over the place with my eyes closed! lol
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lol of course not, that might lead us into a slippery situation! --Author Unknown
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lol of course not, that might lead us into a slippery situation!
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