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When I Was 17 years old  

chicagoguy20066 50M
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5/16/2010 1:07 pm
When I Was 17 years old


I am already aware that I get so attracted to men that I get sooo excited right away when I see good-looking guys in the campus. But living in a heterosexual world, you should deny it, ignore and just move on. To be normal like any other boys, I was pressured to like girls. I like girls, don't get me wrong there. I fantasize being with a girl and giving me head, and fucking her crazy. The only problem is I was still a virgin then. I don;t even know how to satisfy a girl sexually. There's too much pressure from my friends (we were actually 6 boys in a group, always going out during weekends, doing crazy things in the mall, flirting with girls, blah). They were telling me their sex stories (calling them "sexcapades"). Just getting a bj was already a thrill to them. That made me think. Should I just go to a club, pretend to be 18yo and pay a girl to sleep with me? Well, I used my brains more so... Well, who cares if I were still a virgin. If the right woman comes, then that's gonna be a good sex.

Years come by and at 15yo, I graduated High School. The time I was in college, I turned 16. I was just any other college , hanging around with friends, flirting with girls and started to like it. I threw that idea being with men and live my life the way other men should...be with women and love them.

I took Bachelor of Science in Computer Science because I love math (and computers, of course). Im not a geek or a nerdy. I don't even look like one. Im into fashion...always updated with style of clothing. I know how to flirt with women...making them look at me twice, trice the way I walk in the catwalk or in the hallway. Modesty aside, they branded me C.I. (short for Campus Idol)...lol. I made myself visible in school by being cool. They know me as the guy with brains and looks. I always made sure that I have time for everything...giving 80% on my studies and the rest for friends and fun.

Time flew so fast and I was in my sophomore year and this is the year I would never forget. Subjects are getting harder, projects are more time-consuming, 3 math subjects all in one semester, not to mention low-level programming languages to learn...tough year. I was almost done with the first semester and few day more is the finals. I had to do good to keep my scholarship...more and more students are trying to compete with me vying for a scholarship. There were only 2 students per year being granted a scholarship. A certain grade average has to be attained and maintained. That's my very goal...to keep my grades as high as I could to keep my scholarship.

One afternoon, while sitting in the school corridor, a guy approached me. He introduced himself to me. I recognized him. He was in one of my classes. He just wanted to ask a favor from me, that is, borrowing my notes for the finals. He didn't do much taking notes in the class and he needed to pass the subject. So, I lent it to him, he went downstairs and had it photocopied and brought it back to me. That's it.

Who is this guy? Well, he was very good-looking guy who was always late in the class, noisy...stiing 3 row back where I was sitting. I actually know him because he was a movie actor. He is tall, nice physique and very, very attractive. Girls go crazy over him when they see him. He was actually a competition to me...I used to be the one who's getting the attention, and now, transferring from another school, he was getting the attention now. What do you expect. If you were as handsome as he is, popular, a model of toothpaste commercial, with perfect smile, you would definitely get all the attention.

Finally, the grades are out. He then approached me again and thanked me for lending him my notes or else, he had to repeat it. Weeks after, to my surprise, he invited me to his 21st birthday. I didn't know he was 4 years older than I am. Why would a model-actor invite a person like me? Well, probably, to just thank me again. Since then, we became friends...I became part of his own circle of friends. Then, he had to move to another school branch that was closer to his house. I still go out with them. Nothing has changed except we don't see much that often anymore in school.

I really liked him. I even fantasized him...making out with him. But that's just a fantasy I don't usually give attention to. I just started a relationship with a girl, a good friend of my brother's. It only lasted for 6 months. Just kissing, no actual sex involved. She was a professional singer and chose her career over her studies and me. She was always jealous of my books. She wanted my time which herself could not give me because of her singing career. Damn! Women can be very demanding.

She broke up with me and I was so depressed and the only person I talked to regarding this was my actor friend. We spoked over the phone and he really made me realize what life is all about. I would get over this and would not affect my studies. I loved her and missed her still. (At least, I know, I am not into man anymore yet still a virgin...lol).

Since I was in his area, I decided to pay him a visit in his school and we went out. We had dinner and later, went to his sister's place (where his 21st bday was held). We talked about life, school and girlfriends. Typical male-bonding. We decided to get some beer and some hard drinks, too. It was past 12mn, no school the next day and decided to sleep overnight. I called my parents, told them I was gonna stay with my friend's house instead and go home the next day.

We were laughing, watching TV and I was sooo drunk that I could not move a muscle anymore. I don't even remember what happened until I was awaken by something I never felt before in my life...getting a blowjob. Yes, my best friend, the model-actor was giving me a head. I tried to stop him coz I was scared but he never stopped. He even pulled my pants all the way down and sucked me more. I could not stop him coz I was loving it...a warm lips, owned by a very handsome guy, around my cock, WOW. I just came and tried catching my breath. It was so damn good. After that, he pulled his pants down and tried to put his cock in my mouth...no way. I was not in my home, I was soo scared and just shot my load. I pushd him away and slept in the other bed.

Next morning, I woke up and he was beside me...looked so worried. Then everything came back to me what had happened that early morning. He was so drunk and could not stop himself not to do that to me. He became honest with me. He said that he was so attracted to me the first time he saw me in class. Flattering! He apologized and just asked me not to tell that to anyone or else, his career is gone, his friends would leave him, etc. I pitied him. He's a good guy, a very good friend of mine and I tried my best to comfort him. Next thing I knew, we were kissing and started to take his clothes off and taking my clothes off. I just could not stop making out with him. He's hot, he's very handsome and I wanted to make that fantasy come true. I wasn't good in sucking but he enjoyed it. I did things I never thought I would do but I enjoyed it so much that we did it again and again that very day.

I went home, feeling guilty. I just could not believe myself doing it, approving such man sex. How stupid of me not to use my brains and let my urges take over.

I then questioned myself... am I gay or just experimenting..trying new things in life? I never spoke to him but he kept on calling. After a week of avoiding him, I finally spoke to him and met up with him again. He told me that it's just an<b> infatuation </font></b>but guess what happened in that meeting? We had sex again. We were cautiously and secretly having sex every week for 9 months until I met a girl of my dreams. I had to leave him. It broke his heart.

Honestly, I loved this guy. He was my best friend and that would never change. He would always have a spot in my heart.

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