Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
Blogs > peekabooicu2ucme > Musings and mayhem of my mind |
Trustiness
Trustiness Yeah, I like to make up words once in awhile. Trust though, real trust. It's not an easy thing for me. I've been fucked over so many times by the people I was supposed to be able to trust that it's not something I do very often or very easily. Treat others the way you want to be treated. Check. Give the benefit of the doubt. Checkish. Trust until you have no reason to. I try to, I really do! Don't be paranoid. Fuck. Really? How do I erase something from my psyche that's been burnt into it repeatedly? You wanna know what I do? I watch people. I watch 'em a lot. And I shut up until I've watched 'em enough. Sometimes it makes people think I'm stuck up or shy, but what it really is, is me watching to see if they are who they represent. How people behave towards others lets me know how they're going to behave towards me. If they're back stabbing shmucks, I'm gonna see it and avoid telling them anything about myself. If I hear 'em telling one person one thing and another something completely different, I'm gonna know they're liars and not believe anything they spout out. This means I don't develop a lot of close friendships. I fucking hate people. Not all people, just the ones that fuck around being fake or assholish. And that encompasses a LOT of people. The friends I do have, I cherish them. They are the people I trust. They are the ones I watched and found worthy of my time and efforts. They are the ones I can turn to no matter what and say anything to. If I fuck up, they're the ones I spill it to and know that I won't be attacked or absolved, just listened to. When things go wrong, they are the ones I know I can count on to comfort me. When things are awesome, they're the ones I celebrate with, even if it takes me some time to get around to it. (I'm busy! Don't judge me! ) Anywho, complete and utter trust doesn't have to mean being completely stupid right? I get it that people are fallible and will fuck up from time to time as well. I know some of the people I trust have slipped and maybe said something they shouldn't have, or done something they regretted later. Nothing huge or life changing, but hurtful just the same. The thing is if I know they're truly sorry, I'm gonna let it go. Most of the time without even saying anything about it. I've figured out I've never been freaking perfect either. But I do have my own moral code that I always follow to let my friends know that they can trust me as well. I always tell the truth even if it hurts someone, though I will try to soften the blow if I can. I always keep my word when humanly possible. If it's not, I fess up. I keep other's secrets secret. And I do treat others as I want to be treated. Most of the time. Do you have trust issues? Do you give the benefit of the doubt until proven otherwise? |
|||
|
I'm definitely not as gullible as I used to be. A few of my so called friends used to tell me all sorts of stories and I believed them. Then I soon realised most of it was lies and eventually I stopped listening. I don't trust people who don't listen back.
| ||
|
Hey! I can go off people too ya know
| ||
5/23/2011 5:05 pm |
i seem to have inherited my mom's radar, so i typically don't have issues with trust.
| ||
|
Lol, the reason I replied to this at the other place is the fact that I am not worried about accessing the other place on my phone, so I see things on that place quicker than I see it from here. I don't TRUST this site well enough to play about in it on my phone. I just gots my phone and I really really like it! I have heard other people talking about picking up trojans and spyware from here. The computer is well protected, and if I stick to the sites I know are safe when I am on the phone I don't worry about it picking up some 'bad disease'. "Shall I tell you the secret of the true scholar? It is this: every man I meet is my master in some point, and in that I learn of him." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
| ||
|
You know Peek, we really have a great deal in common with regards what you discuss here. Probably the main difference would be that I often give people too much trust. I really need to refine my evil cuntery in that respect I'm also not really convinced of the simple interpretation of the golden rule though, given how people can want such radically different things, but I do try to be a good guy, right up until the time for niceness has passed All are welcome to an audience with The Magnificent One oldirtybacchus
| ||
|
I think being married at one time and being walked over a number of times - its safe to say YES I do have trust issues...
| ||
|
I try to be more open, but it's that damned instinct that kicks in and tells me to wait and see.
| ||
|
Yeah, I figure most everyone is lying but the shitty behavior still makes me look at 'em in awe of the suckiness. I hear trusters are half off after the major holidays.
| ||
|
It was you wasn't it? You can tell the truth. We'll all trust you then.
| ||
|
I'm definitely not as gullible as I used to be. A few of my so called friends used to tell me all sorts of stories and I believed them. Then I soon realised most of it was lies and eventually I stopped listening. I don't trust people who don't listen back.
| ||
|
i seem to have inherited my mom's radar, so i typically don't have issues with trust.
| ||
|
Lol, the reason I replied to this at the other place is the fact that I am not worried about accessing the other place on my phone, so I see things on that place quicker than I see it from here. I don't TRUST this site well enough to play about in it on my phone. I just gots my phone and I really really like it! I have heard other people talking about picking up trojans and spyware from here. The computer is well protected, and if I stick to the sites I know are safe when I am on the phone I don't worry about it picking up some 'bad disease'.
| ||
|
So you hear me on this.
| ||
|
You know Peek, we really have a great deal in common with regards what you discuss here. Probably the main difference would be that I often give people too much trust. I really need to refine my evil cuntery in that respect I'm also not really convinced of the simple interpretation of the golden rule though, given how people can want such radically different things, but I do try to be a good guy, right up until the time for niceness has passed
|
Become a member to create a blog