590 posts 7/3/2017 3:02 pm
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Time of the season
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It's the time of the season
When love runs high
And this time, give it to me easy
And let me try with pleasured hands
To take you in the sun to (promised lands)
To show you every one
It's the time of the season for loving
What's your name?
Who's your daddy?
(He rich) Is he rich like me?
Has he taken, any time (any time)
(To show) to show you what you need to live
Tell it to me slowly (tell me what)
I really want to know
It's the time of the season for loving
What's your name?
Who's your daddy?
(He rich) Is he rich like me?
Has he taken, any time (any time)
(To show) to show you what you need to live
Tell it to me slowly (tell me what)
I really want to know
It's the time of the season for loving
Okay, here's the latest! I'll give you the short synopsis in case you don't feel like reading through the whole fucking thing. The princess and I are still together, but were not. No, we still haven't done the nasty.  We will be ramping up our relationship though, because we're working on a new project together. She wants to move in with me, I'm against it for just about any reason you can think of. I bought a couple of new guitars, Les Paul and a Tele. I realized those dreams, about Erica, I had written about in the past were actually about the princess and not Erica. But, the reason Erica was inserted into the dream instead of her, was because they are very similar in personality and everything else.
What do you want to know about first? Okay, the princess and I, it seems like, are tied together. Even though we both keep trying to break things off, we still find ourselves drawn together. This new project I'm working on. I could do it by myself, but I realize she would be better at some aspects of it than I would. So, I kind of have to bring her into it. She told me how well she's done in the past. Which I found unbelievable at first, but I realized if that's true I really do need her assistance with this new thing. So, I'm kind of stuck there, at least for now. But I'm sure as I go along she'll probably become more ingrained with things and I won't be able to get rid of her even if I wanted too!  But, if things go the way I think they will, it won't be that much of a problem. Besides, if worst comes to worse, I can always start drinking again!   This relationship, if you want to call it that, is not easy by any means. For one thing, she's nasty and really vicious sometimes!  She's been using physical violence against me, for about the entire time I've known her. Nah, it doesn't bother me. It must be because I'm older or something. When I was younger if someone hit me, I didn't care who they were I'd retaliate!  With her, I barely even notice and don't even react most of the times. I'll give you an example. We were riding in the car together, probably going somewhere to buy her something, as usual. And she was telling me how she and that spic douche bag she's dating were banned from the adult shop!  So, me being my witty and insightful self, I replied, " Oh, I know why? Because you were playing Goldie Locks and the three bears in the dildo section. This one is too big, this one is too small, ah, this one fits just right! And Alex was doing the same thing, but in the butt plug section"!  Which I personally think is very fucking funny. And then she halls off and punches me right in the mouth! LOL!   First of all I'm driving so we could have gotten into an accident. But no, it didn't hurt. Although I pretended like it did to make her feel good. Her blonde hands are too soft, she can't hurt me. Plus I'm used to being punched in the face. If I hadn't reacted like it hurt, she would have hit me with something that would have. She has this big German shepherd named Elvis. She took her Moms car out one night and got into an accident with hit. The next day, she and her sister got into a knock down drag out fight over it. So, Elvis stepped in and took a bite out of both of them to get them to stop fighting, apparently it worked. She showed me the bite mark on her leg. So, after she slugged me, I said, " You know if you had done that at home, Elvis would bite you again "! LOL! She just glared at me still seething! That's just one time I remembered, she's constantly striking me over shit! In the winter time, I was coming out of the mini mart, buying her cigarettes because she forgot her ID. And she hurled a big ice ball at me. Now, this is where my martial arts training comes into play. Once in an early morning class, when I was still a stupid white belt. My senior instructor was holding his coffee and a donut while conducting the class. He asked me to stand in front of him and punch him. Me being as stupid as Kelly or Jay at the time, asked, " won't you spill your coffee '? He just shook his head. So, I fired off dead center and hit air!  He pivoted his body with his feet causing me to completely miss him, even though he was right in front of me. And he didn't even spill his coffee. So, when I came outside and saw this snowball coming at me, I did the same thing, and it missed me and hit the door. And no, I didn't throw one back at her. Because I would have hit her and probably injured her too! That's another side affect from my training, every time I aim at something, I hit the target! After all this abuse I suffer at her hands, what do you think I do in response? You're right, I buy her more stuff! Oh well.
So, I bought a couple of new guitars. Once again, I had not intended to buy them, but I found myself in the same place I was when I bought two guitars the last time, Sam Ash in King of Prussia. It must be force of habit or something. I saw these guitars online and was planning on ordering them that way, eventually. But I found myself meandering around the store, and well, you know how it is?  Now, first of all, I rationalized, that I needed to buy another Les Paul, because I have to have one in my collection. The one I had before, I sold because it was a total piece of shit. Of which I paid a fortune for, and it still didn't play right. I bought it online, paying almost two thousand dollars for it. It was beat to shit, the neck was warped and the frets buzzed like crazy!  I had my guitar tech work on it, and he did everything possible to get it to sound right, but it still sounded like crap. I think who ever had it before must have left it out in extreme temperatures? That's why these things have cases and you have to leave them in a room with a good temperature range. You can here how bad it sounded in the videos I made with it. I think I took all of them down though because I realized how bad it sounded. Well, this new one I bought is actually better and way cooler, but at a fraction of the price. It's the epiphone Les Paul. Not only does it feel and sound better it has a really cool feature to it! It has a push pull volume knobs that allow you to split the signal of the humbucker to turn it into a single coil. When I was still in high school, I remember reading how Jimmy Page had his Les Paul modified to do just that. But he had buttons installed under the pick guard. I remember thinking how cool that was, even though at the time, I didn't know why. The reason is, he recorded the first couple of albums with a telecaster. That has just single coil pick ups on it. So, when he was on stage, to get the same tone, without switching guitars, he could just press the buttons and make the humbuckers into single coils. That was it. But I still think it's a cool feature. So, when they started marketing this model, that was the main reason I wanted it. And even though it's not a Gibson, it's still very cool. Now, for the snobs out there,. I owned a Gibson Les Paul, before I bought that piece of shit that wouldn't play. And I remember having to spend a lot of money to have it worked on the entire time I owned it. I thought because of all the money I spent on it, I shouldn't have had that problem, but I did. Everything needed work or replacement at one time or another. Those things are good, but they cost a lot to maintain too! So, if I'm going to be paying out the ass over the years, I shouldn't have to lay out so much up front. But I don't think that will happen with this one. I can tell it's very solidly built and I don't anticipate having any problems with it. I think they could have asked for twice the amount that I paid for it, easily. I also bought a telecaster, because I've never owned one. My reasoning was, I have a Stratocaster, I don't need a telecaster. But, once again, I was wrong. It's a totally different animal and has a completely different feel to it. Also, "my gypsy road " video. I made, was supposed to have a telecaster. I used my Ibanez and it didn't sound right. So now I have an excuse to rerecord it! I saw a whole bunch of other guitars I wanted down there too, but I controlled myself and only bought two. I will be back to buy out the store again, you can bank on it! 
About those dreams I had and included Erica in them. Well, I'm glad I documented them and I believe I had them several years ago. For some reason, I was thinking about them again. It's weird, because I still remember the dreams like they were an actual event.  So, when I thought about them again, I realized that the places I had dreamt about, were the places the princess, I'm currently associated with, that she lives and dwells in. For instance, the house I said I met Erica in, with other people and women. That's exactly what the princesses home looks like. I didn't realize it at first until I was over the last time, and she had me walk through from the living room to the kitchen. Usually they have it blocked off to keep Elvis off the couch. When I saw it from that perspective, I recognized it as the house from my dream. Also,. I remember describing a big dog, like a shepherd in the dream. That's exactly what her looks like. And I think I said I was playing with it too. And I play with Elvis every time I visit there. Also, I remember mentioning chimes. Well, outside on the porch, they have about a dozen different wind chimes. Also, in the yard, there is a chair and bench, like the ones I described in my dream. Only, so far, she and I have not sat on them and looked up at the night sky to see some amazing event, yet. I remember in another dream, I said that Erica was in a house with all these other people sleeping around the room. That is the princesses<b> boyfriends </font></b>place. I haven't been there yet, but from what she described to me, it's exactly like remember in the dream. And a third dream I had, involved me examining her foot. the princess had injured her ankle. She was in the bathroom of her house and showing me her foot. I remember, it looked was exactly how I remembered seeing it in the dream. What all of this means, I still don't know. But, as you can see, I documented all of this previously. You could say I'm making it all up? But, I could go take pictures of everything I've just mentioned and post them here. Maybe I will? 
All of this is very eerie and strange to me. But, like I said, we're working on a new project. And I know Erica hates my guts, but I know for sure she'd want to be in on what I'm doing now, if she knew what it was. But, instead I'm working with her doppelganger. So, go figure?
Addendum
Well, the princess just left. She was over at my place because we were supposed to be working on stuff, namely our new project. We need to come up with a name, and a facebook page for promotions. We're not using either of our own facebook pages because it's not practical and I also don't want you bitches getting all up in my shit.
Anyway, she was over last Monday too. I finally got to play my guitar for her. I played the doors "You're a lost little girl ". Because I thought the subject matter was appropriate and she recognized the point I was making immediately. She's sharp about things like that, but kind of naïve about other more common things. Like for instance. That bike I bought for her. She didn't know how to use the gears. I thought that was a basic thing she should have mastered, considering that she's been riding so long, but apparently not. I tired not to laugh at her but it was really freakin hard! She got mad and told me to leave, I was at her place. Later when I was performing the song, she told me I had a good singing voice. I may make it my next video. I was going to use one of my priemo axes when I played it to her. But, for some odd reason I used that piece of crap Tesco Del Ray I once bought because it was similar to my first guitar. It worked or sounded good because it's a sixties song, and that guitar was manufactured in the sixties. Even though Robbie Krieger the doors guitarist probably used a top of the line Gibson for the record. The guitars made during that period were built differently and have a distinct tone. Even the cheap models. So, that may have been why it worked? So, speaking of weird ass shit. Guess what? The very next day, I wrote this post, I saw in real life, the vision I had in the dream! Can you believe that shit? Well I can't! And not only that, after I witnessed it, I realized some of the odd aspects of the event that didn't make sense when I saw it in the dream. Let me explain. Another strange thing, is that I remember the dream like it was an actual event, and I can still recall details of it just from memory. That in, and of, itself is bizarre. In the dream, or the part at the end, after Erica showed me the chime in the kitchen. We were sitting in the back yard and it was getting dark, like dusk. We were both sitting on back yard benches or furniture. She said something, I don't remember now, maybe I wrote about it when I originally related this dream? But I'm not going to look it up because it's not important. I remember feeling like I wanted to ask her something. Then, we looked up in the sky, and I saw a huge military cargo jet! I think I said it reminded me of an aircraft carrier in the sky. I think I said it was banking in the sky and flying low as well? Also, it was bright around the plane, but dark surrounding the bright circle I was seeing. The day after I wrote this post, I was riding in a car and I heard the sound of a big jet. I looked out of the window, and I saw exactly what I just described to you now. I was shocked to shit, and I still don't believe it! First of all, yes it was indeed a military cargo jet or something like that. Now before you go off on a "it's not what you described because......" tangent. It was exactly what I saw in the dream and I have never seen anything like it before. It was a huge jet, it had four engines on the wings, just like I witnessed in the dream. It was flying very low to the ground or lower then normal. It was still a few thousand feet above the ground but too low for something of that size. It was banking at the same angle I saw in the dream too. I'm looking at this and I can't believe what I'm seeing! It also had something strange on the bottom or belly of the plane. I don't know what it was. It wasn't the engines because those were on the wings. Like I said, it was a cargo jet. It was definitely not a commercial jet, I know what those things look like. I have never seen a plane like this before. I watched it make a few low passes then it took off. I don't know what it was doing, or why it was flying so low or anything else. Now, about the way I viewed it in the dream and how it actually looked. I said it was bright around the plane, but circled in darkness. That's because I was viewing it from inside a car. It was bright outside viewing through the window but dark inside the car from where I was sitting, that's why it looked like that when I was viewing in the dream. I didn't understand it then, but since I've now actually witnessed it, I understand everything completely. Later on that day, the princess called me and we talked on the phone. Nothing of anything note worthy happened that day, except we may have been discussing our new project. I know in the dream I was sitting on benches in the back yard with Erica when I witnessed the jet banking low in the sky. That's the only part I don't understand. Well, there you have it. I told you the dreams, I've now told you I have witnessed actual events and places from those dreams. I don't know what it means, or why Erica was inserted into them and not the current princess I'm associated with now. Maybe that will be explained eventually too. I'm waiting with great anticipation!
Addendum
Well, here is the latest. The princess and I are on the outs at the moment. The reason, I'm sure you could figure, is that other guy she's seeing. I wanted to start a project with her, and she was enthusiastic about it too. But, I could never reconcile that relationship she had with that total loser. That's mainly why I never got involved with her myself. I don't know what she was planning but not very long ago, I'm talking just a few weeks ago, she was seriously trying to move in with me! She didn't thank God, but not because of me or even her, it was other extenuating circumstances. The whole thing is a lot more complicated than I'm telling here. The main problem I have is that the guy is a criminal and he will bring her down with him. I try to explain that to her, but anyone who's ever dealt with a woman who's fixated on one of these types of guys knows what I'm up against. But at the same time she wanted to maintain a relationship with me. It's like she has a dual personality and wanted to live in two completely and opposite worlds simultaneously! I know it sounds really fucked up, and it is. Well, I couldn't tolerate this bullshit anymore so I basically told her to make up her mind and choose one of us. She has, for the moment chose him. But, it's not that simple. She was making a knee jerk emotional reaction and hasn't really thought it through. Here's how the situation really is. She's spoiled and expects a certain level of accommodations. Which she was receiving from me. She thinks she loves him, but he's just using her for sex, and doesn't care about her. I know this because in the entire time she's been with him he's never helped her or done anything of significance for her. When ever she needed anything she would come to me. And I would provide it for her. Which in turn allowed her to stay in this fucked up situation with this loser. Yeah, right I know, it's a fucked up circle of dysfunction and I had to put an end to it. So I did. Right now she's fuming, thinking, " I don't need him, who does he think he is trying to tell me how to run my life, fuck him "! And she probably feel that way for a while or until all of the advantages I've given her slowly start running out! I give it a month or until the summer ends. Then, reality will start to set in. Unless she's made some adjustments of her own, like getting a regular job? Which I don't think she will because of her personality and attitude. She'll be left to face some hard realities. Which, she should have faced a long time ago but because of me, she didn't have too! So, it will be interesting to see what happens next. What could very likely happen is, she'll just adjust and move on and I won't hear from her again. Or like I've been thinking, the situation will resolve itself. But, I know that is way too much of an optimistic view to hold. What will probably happen is, she will wait a while, then try to schmooze me into the old pattern and hope I don't object or figure it out again. LOL! But, that's not going to happen because I'm not caving this time. I can't. Plus my own situation is changing and evolving as well. I don't know where I will be in a few months. My whole situation could change and I'll be deported into a whole new reality. So, even if she wants to keep doing things the old way, it won't be possible anyway. Yeah, I know, it's really complicated. Well, we'll see where it goes?
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