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Little story about how my last relationship ended and my new one began. It's a wild ride beware!!  

bookwormblowjob 42M/35F
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4/8/2020 12:57 pm
Little story about how my last relationship ended and my new one began. It's a wild ride beware!!

Hi I'm Cass and this is completely new for me I'm never been the type to be very open about anything let alone sex. But I guess i have done some things that would qualify as living a swinger lifestyle but tbh it was my ex ideal never mine. See he is bi sexual and that never bother me I mean how can you love someone and not love every part, anyways he was the type say things like he needs to mess around with men because it's who he is and if you don't like it understand the you were suppression him on top of that isnt better then going behind your back, Yes I know he sound like a complete asshole then you'd be right he is. He took the fun out of trying new experiences he made it into a chore or something I had to do to be with him. Side note little thing about me I don't do well when a man tells me to do something if you got a dick I'm not listening to you. Okay back to the story so 8 years later 3 amazing little girls and here I am doing things I'm not comfortable with just to make the man I loved happy for fuck sake I didn't wanna be the girl that suppression him. Now during this time I have a gay best friend we were very close he's even one of my girls God father. Now when I tell you I trusted these men with every fiber of my being I really did. I mean I'm sleeping and messing around with men to make him happy to make sure he doesn't ''cheat" why in the world would he need to look elsewhere I'm doing everything he asked of me and more I took his word that this would be better for us. So here's little o me just minding my business living my life being the best damn wife and mother when my entire fucking world implodes from just a couple sentences. Ex and friend get into a disagreement about something stupid and friend ask me to say something I say no it's between them and I don't pick side I should of picked sides because then he responds with well he has been cheating on you and hangs up. Now I'll be honest at first I assume he was being petty, cause my friend can be really petty sometimes. So I don't say shit but damn guys that shit was eating a girls soul I had to know the truth so I ask ex and of course he says no friend just being petty don't listen to him. Again I let the shit drop but again it start to eat at me like some kind of flesh eating disease. So I message friend "Hey dude so what did you mean by he's cheated on me? You can't just drop a bomb like that with out some facts to back it up, well let me tell y'all I was not prepared for the answer I got. Not less the 5 minutes later I get a rather large message and in this message goes into great detail how ex and friend not only being fucking each other but that it's been happening for 6 years. Mother fucker didn't cheat he went out and had a hole ass affair on ya girl. When I tell you I was shook bitch I didn't know what the fuck to do, I should mention that right before this shock wave of betrayal the ex had just set up a 3some with a lovely guy he was coming over two days after I found out about affair. You guys wanna know how I got over the most epic betrayal while also meeting my soulmate. Well I'm trying tell ya just be patient okay where was I right so this dude coming over I have not picked this man or really talk to guy again ex had full control over that I had no say. I should also mention the 1st time we ever had a 3some I got my ass beat after because I acted the way he wanted me too during and after and not the way he expected me too I really can't make up this level of crazy . So every 3some after I made sure not enjoy the other man too much to never seem to eager for the dick fake that shit like I was trying to win a golden globe. so ex doesn't think it's a good idea to have guy come over after I found out about the affair but I was like nah I think it's a perfect time see ya girl was definitely was gonna enjoy her damn self this time he's feelings be damned. So we continue with plan to have guy come over in two days time. A very long and stressful 2 days later guy shows up and can a girl be super honest real quick when guy walked through my front door I have never felt such strong feelings for a human I haven't even spoken too but your girl did, butterflies and all . He walked in looking like a little preppy white boy "not my usual type I'm covered in tatts and guy is what we call pink as fuck" with the most amazing smile I'd ever seen on a man before. So of course things progress into the naked fun time real quick in ex and I room. Now remember bitch was gonna have fun this time mostly for me but a little bit to hurt ex. When I tell you it was like this man knew my body for decades not minutes, he knew right away what I like and didn't, he knew I loved to my held very tight during sex, EVERYTHING HE KNEW EVERYTHING!! The ex and had rules of course but number 1 rule during 3some I do not kiss the other man EVER mann I couldn't help myself I had to see if they were as soft as they looked. plus guy was a lot bigger the ex and I'm not one for size if you can use it doesn't matter how big but this time y' it matter after years of 5inch dick 10 was a little bit of a mind fuck (in a good way) so guy continue to give me the most intense sexual experience in my 27 years of life so far. Oops ending up breaking another 'rule" too never make ex feel like he was left out and that's exactly what happened like come on how the hell was I supposed to remember this shit when I'm orgasming so hard I'm seeing Jesus and your girl is atheist. so the sex God and I finish up and he gets ready to leave after hanging for a little while and again when ya girl has some crazy feelings like please don't leave me or take me with you to a person I don't even know is<b> weird. </font></b>So guy leaves and I'm stuck with stupid again and he's pissed but a bitch don't care I just rolled over and took my ass to sleep. Next week goes bye and during this time I do something very new I have conversations with guy over text something ex only did with the others. Find out all kinda of stuff he's a single father of 3 boys has full custody of them. We find out most of our bday are days apart. We like the same books, tv shows, etc. So I go to ex and say I don't wanna have 3some anymore unless it with one person and I would like that person to be guy. He agrees because guy is also bi and he benefit both of us. Now for the next 5 months we live a similar life of a poly couple and let say girl is kinda loving it, ex and guy can't be more opposite if they try I was feeling like I was getting the best of both worlds plus the more guy was around the less shit I'd had to put up with ex he's all about image if people are around he's the perfect husband. And shit ex is happy he gets to suck some cock without feeling bad?? I don't think he ever felt bad but let's go with it for the story sake. We were one happy thruple that is until I realized I have falling in love and not some puppy love I'm talking hardcore head over heels love with guy it was so bad my mom said if I bought he's name up again she was duck taping my mouth. And it wasn't just one side he loved me too (he was the 1st to say it). So here I am confused do I stay with the man I've been with for almost a decade have a family with or do I take a chance on a love I never felt before with a man I truly didn't know existing outside of books I've read. And I know what your thinking it should be easy leave the cheating dirt bag for the prince right? Well if your thinking that maybe you don't have it's a hard decision to make when the choice is breaking up your family. I had decided to try staying and make it work I've put in a lot of years with this man now you'd think during this time he's be nice suck up cause home boy just got cought but naw ex is special or more specific thought a girl would never leave so he continue be awful, belittle me and the worst part lots of unwanted sex. Then the night that change everything the straw the broke the camel back as they say, I was sleeping peacefully in bed ex worked night and came home about 4am now I had a horrible cold and was snoring from not being able to beathe when all of sudden I'm being kicked right out my own bed head hits the end table and everything when I come too ex is yelling about how my loud ass is keeping him up blah blah. Now this is when I realized WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE!! I just picked my big ass up off the floor and went down to sleep on the couch it's late and I just don't have it in me anymore but I don't go back sleep I lay there and came up with a plan. Guy always told he would help the girls and I we could stay with him he'd help me get on my feet my own place no obligation to him. I told you they don't make men like him anymore a literally knight in shining armor my own personal captain save a hoe. Well as I'm sitting there trying to get the small cut on my head from the table to stop bleeding my plan forms. Guy told me if I ever need him just call so next morning while ex is sleeping I call guy tell him I'm ready to cash in that help come get me at 5 ex leaves for work at 430 and I need out of here as soon as he leaves case he comes home early. I don't know how maybe just from knowing me so long but ex knew something was not right as soon as he woke .he start asking what I'm doing this afternoon he never cared before. Somehow he seem to just know I'm leaving as soon as he goes for work. So he beats me some the comes the unwanted sex. Destroy our bedroom breaks my grandma jewelry box even goes as far as tell our girls he doesn't love them. And the entire time the only thing that got me through it was the thought of guy coming in a couple hours this will all be over soon. It was the longest 6 hours of my life. But finally ex leaves for work not more then 10 minutes later guy pulls into my driveway. He didn't know about the abuse he had worries but I always denied any abuse I was very good at hiding it but the look he gave I'll never forget and it made another piece of my heart belong to him because I knew he would never put his hands on me in a violent way . That day he saved my life and still 4 years later he continues to be the most amazing person I've ever met. He so patient with and I have a lot of awful trigger and some crazy panic attacks. But never not once has he asked for me to get over it he lets me set the speed I want and now because he's been so amazing I feel like I'm ready to start exploring my sexuality. Even tho he's always lived a more wild sex life even with his ex wife he was happy to be monogamous for me without a second thought to have fun experimenting with just us. Not once in 4 years has he made me feel because he is a bi-sexual male he need to have sex with both male and female at the same time. I know this isn't something he tells me so I feel better he's the most loyal man I've ever known. I know that after we try new things he will still be the man I feel in love with. Quick update stupid ex about 3 months after I left he started dating one of gay friends other friend someone I would not call a friend but definitely acquaintance to me . 3 yrs ago gay friend, ex and there new relationship all went on vacay together. They all spend holidays together as well. Ladies let me say this if you feel like he doesn't have guilt or he's apologie falls short he probably doesnt feel bad and is only saying because it's expected of him. I have never been as happy as I am right now but if be a liar if I didn't say it's hurtful to know I gave this man so much power,so much love, for fuck sake I gave him 3 , do you know what that does to a body?? that after all that he can't even muster up some shame in what he did to me not only break my trust but make me look so stupid. I honestly don't know my ex or gay friend look in the mirror everyday if I were them I would never feel free from the guilt But in the same breath had he not done those awful things I would of never been put in the path that lead me too my soulmate so in some fucked up way I'm glad all of that happened to me I'm thankful for every tear, every sleepless night. Because all of those took me to not only to the man of my wildest dreams but I also became the mother to 3 amazing sons. My finally get to see what a real father, provider and man of the house looks like.
Thanks for reading fucked up history of Cass, until next time

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