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11/25/2019 9:08 am
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EnigmaInitiative 52F  
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11/25/2019 9:09 am

I Will Survive
Grace
Bad Bad Leroy Brown
The Logical Song
Hotel California
Stuck In the Middle with You
I39m a Believer
Bohemian Rhapsody
How to Forget
Suspicious Minds
The Joker
Killing Me Softly with His Song
You Dont Bring Me Flowers
Crazy Train
Change The World
Power of Love
Sweet Dreams are Made of This
Mr Blue Sky
You Matter to Me

If you remember, in September of 2019, I also took in a homeless man suffering from PTSD during a very stressful time in Central Florida. The news was announcing Hurricane Dorian was on it's way. Now, I follow the news online, and mainly sources outside of the US. The Hurricane Model I was seeing was way different than was being pushed by mainstream media.

“As Hurricane Dorian killed dozens of people in the Bahamas and encroached on the United States’ southeastern coastline, President Donald Trump has been criticized for unduly focusing on the storm’s potential impact on a state that was not expected to be largely impacted: Alabama.
The confusion began on the morning of Sept. 1, when the President tweeted that the state, as well as Florida, South Carolina, North Carolina and Georgia, would “most likely be hit (much) harder than anticipated.””
https://time.com/5671606/trump-hurricane-dorian-alabama/

Tens of thousands of Central Floridians poured into stores buying things they didn't need for a Hurricane they weren't sure was coming. And, I was sucked in, big time. I pushed myself, hard, physically and mentally to accept a stranger into my home, in furtherance of our mission of helping those in need. I was also doing physical labor during the day while counseling; providing masturbation fodder; and giving out massages for free at night.

When the Hurricane was over, my sister was gone, and my video about what didn't happen during Hurricane Dorian got picked up by a Japanese News Service:

https://spectee.com/detail/23160

But, I was still left with a man in my house I barely knew; and a psyche under attack all over the internet and from within. The feelings of emotional abandonment were intense in September, and that's when I walked away from my family. They refused to even listen to me tell them about the people shining lights into my windows; the people who died; the craziness that had befallen my life.

I came out to them, and I wasn't given the open arm treatment I thought I would. Instead I was mental health shamed. My roommate was called to ask if I was taking my medication, and I was being ignored every single time I asked even one person in my family for help. And, that, well, that hit me deep in my soul, it finally struck me that I had been doing all this emotional labor and no one in my family seemed to appreciate it.

So, after begging for help for the last time, where I was literally crying into one of my family member's voicemail, I walked away. And, you know what I got? We'll be praying for you in a text message. Head meet desk.

Look, there are more stories here, and I'm debating if I should go into any kind of real detail. At first I thought I'd tell a bunch of stories, but then I went looking into my instagram stories and low and behold? Many of those private messages are gone, and that includes messages between me and verified users of Instagram.

It's the same thing that I noticed when I went on Facebook after talking with family members who said things that didn't make sense. The messages were...suddenly...just gone. And, that's when I knew I was hacked. Nick saw some of the messages and I took a screenshot of one or two from my family. But, I didn't get many of the ones with Anonymous users because I just didn't care to...

What I knew was that there were a bunch of people online I was talking with, and a stranger in my home I was getting to know. What I knew is I was giving so much of myself that it was eating into my self esteem little by little. And, a struggle began, in my home, over power. Me v Mainman.

The fool kept trying to tell me what to do in my own home, and I was like...doooooood, uh huh. Then, he'd want me to hang out with him, while telling me what to do. And, I was like, no...man...no...I'm busy. (Usually on the cams of Passion). You get the picture, I'm sure.

He did tell me a whole lot about the neighborhood, and a whole lot things I didn't know. Like that I was “sexi mami” to many because no one knew my name. Look, let's just put it this way: I didn't get why people were putting food in my yard, but I do now. Voodoo. People in the neighborhood, well, they think I'm a witch.

Witchcraft is the practice of magical skills and abilities. Witchcraft is a broad term that varies culturally and societally, and thus can be difficult to define with precision; therefore cross-cultural assumptions about the meaning or significance of the term should be applied with caution

I told people all over the internet that I was a white witch living in a dark world. And, some...welll....errrr....

Look, I am a witch in that I utilize natural means for Healing. I am a Healer. I use natural herbs, as well as talk therapy and massages to bring about relief to some people; and I do it for free. Last year, I broke my finger. I never went to the doctor, just took care of it myself. Also, last year, I sprained my knee, and the doctor told me I needed knee replacement surgery. I never had knee replacement surgery, I do stretching instead. And, I take walks. while listening to music, wearing yoga pants, swaying that ass, and smiling the whole time...

I just plain don't follow western medicine anymore because it's far too expensive, for me personally. Add in the fact that I like to sit and roll around in the grass with my cats? Well, come on, I live in a neighborhood with a lot of people from different countries, cultures, and customs.

And, that's where I'm going to leave it.

Thank You For Reading!

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By

Tracy Chapman

If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause an effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change

If you knew that you would be alone
Knowing right being wrong
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings a pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses, how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause and effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change

Are you so upright you can't be bent
If it comes to blows
Are you so sure you won't be crawling
If not for the good why risk falling
Why risk falling

If everything you think you know
Makes your life unbearable
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you'd broken every rule and vow
And hard times come to bring you down
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?

Would you change?
Would you change?
If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?
Written by Tracy Chapman

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Logan0867 52M
190 posts
11/25/2019 11:25 am

So much to the story I didn't know *hugs*


SpunkyMonkeyz58 62M
1297 posts
11/25/2019 11:50 am

They say that we all have a story to tell o
'r dear fr'end n tr'th we all so do, b't, yo'rs is very intriguing Xx Oo Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect Awrooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Meooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooows H'gssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss


Paulxx001 63M
17066 posts
11/25/2019 12:51 pm

Stuff... does happen to you.😐
Good song btw. 👍😊

... is there another way to look at it.
We Have Lost Forty Million Good Men WTF


EnigmaInitiative 52F  
2713 posts
11/25/2019 4:09 pm

    Quoting Logan0867:
    So much to the story I didn't know *hugs*
So much of the story only I knew, it's too difficult to tell this story in one sitting. It's so long, and so much of what I did during this time didn't make a whole lot of sense to anyone but me.

Hugs

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EnigmaInitiative 52F  
2713 posts
11/25/2019 4:09 pm

    Quoting SpunkyMonkeyz58:
    They say that we all have a story to tell o
    'r dear fr'end n tr'th we all so do, b't, yo'rs is very intriguing Xx Oo Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect Awrooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Meooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooows H'gssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
It's a wild one, that's for sure!



Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect
Awroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Xoxoxoxoxoxo

Huggles

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EnigmaInitiative 52F  
2713 posts
11/25/2019 4:10 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Stuff... does happen to you.😐
    Good song btw. 👍😊
I made stuff happen this time, and stuff does happen. It's not just one thing.

I do love that song!



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citizen4722 62M  
67122 posts
11/25/2019 4:16 pm

Once I thought I saw you
In a crowded hazy bar
Dancing on the light
From star to star....


EnigmaInitiative 52F  
2713 posts
11/27/2019 7:06 am

    Quoting citizen4722:
    Once I thought I saw you
    In a crowded hazy bar
    Dancing on the light
    From star to star....
Far across the moonbeam
I know that's who you are,
I saw your brown eyes
turning once to fire.

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