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EnigmaInitiative 52F  
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11/22/2019 4:06 pm
Change The World


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Secret Agent Rabbit Origin Story

The Origin Story has begun


EnigmaInitiative 52F  
2713 posts
11/22/2019 4:06 pm

I Will Survive
Grace
Bad Bad Leroy Brown
The Logical Song
Hotel California
Stuck In the Middle with You
I39m a Believer
Bohemian Rhapsody
How to Forget
Suspicious Minds
The Joker
Killing Me Softly with His Song
You Dont Bring Me Flowers
Crazy Train

“Love isn't a perfect state of caring. It is an active noun, like struggle. To Love someone is to accept them exactly the way he or she is, right now.” ~Fred Rogers. Mr Roger's Neighborhood.

If it's not brilliantly obvious to anyone by now, I was playing undercover reporter online. Fuck, y'all, I think I'm hysterical, you know that, right? I understand that not many “get” my humor, I'm twisted and prefer stories to punchlines. I put myself through HELL talking with all kinds of people, trying to understand why these people would do this to someone starting a charity.

In some instances, I actually think I “get” it. There are some people in this world who believe I needed to “come out”, and they were right. I was living “under the radar”. I had pulled away from society in every way conceivable, and retreated into a neglected home/

The issue is that people in my life? They didn't seem to respect me. And, folks, that includes my brother and sister. I don't have a lot to say about my extended family in terms of this. I believe, now, that other people were operating my families' profiles on Facebook. It's the only way some of the things that happened there would make sense.

Why wouldn't I pull back? I didn't set good boundaries and allowed people to walk all over me. When I attempted to set good boundaries? People just stepped all over them anyway. I felt damned if I did, and damned if I didn't.

My sister came to live with us in the middle of August. At first? She was super helpful, and it was fun having her around. I hadn't seen her since the summer of 2016 in Michigan, and she was with her husband then. He didn't exactly allow her to spend time alone with me. Ya know, because I'm a baaaaad influence. How dare I be a woman with strong opinions different from him...

You know the type, I'm sure.

Five days after she arrived? In bed all the fucking time.

She said she was going to help around the house, it would be how she offset the rent. She did, for about five days.

SMDH

And, it wasn't only that, she was drinking, very heavily. Vodka. The stuff my stepgrandfather used to drink. I found bottles EVERYWHERE.

Talk about triggering flashbacks.

I'd try to talk with her, she'd be sleeping, or wouldn't want to talk. She'd complain about how much pain she was in, and I was like....uhhhhh...I'm in pain too. She had like six or seven prescription bottles, I didn't even know what they were all for. I asked, I got some garbled answer.

So, I let her be.

Then? She started treating me like I was her slave. Here she was eating up my food, using electricity we were paying for, and all she did was mope in the room. Sure, every once in a while I would get her out of bed to go to the store with me, but it was rare. Very Rare.

Then, Hurrican Dorian was on the way. I wasn't worried, but other people were acting strange. I needed a break from them. So, I got a hotel room and called up Storm to come over. Look, he came over, we had “playtime”, I took a nap and when I woke...he was gone. That was August 30th.

And, that's when Hurricane Debbi took over.

I was soooooo upset, soooooooo upset. I left. I didn't stay the whole night. Nope, I asked them to call me an Uber and packed up my stuff. While waiting in the lobby, I got into a conversation with the owner of the hotel. Nice guy, interesting.

I got home to a drunk sister and a roommate gone to work. She talked with me for a short time to try to figure out why I was home early. Then? Back to bed for her and I was left to cry myself to sleep over Storm, again.

The next morning? I put on my happy face and started working on becoming the social media influencer I didn't want to become while my sister stayed in bed. And, that day is also the day I met the Maintenance man. The guy we hired to help out around the house. You know the one who showed up at my door looking for work?

Made a whole freaking studio apartment out of the sunroom for him. Him and I, with Nick's blessing, of course. I didn't just move some random man into the house. By this time, Nick and were operating as a partnership to help those in need. It wasn't that difficult to “talk him into it”.

He helped us get the house ready for Hurrican Dorian that I didn't think would arrive. By this time, I kept saying “I am the storm” every time someone started getting all upset about it. I was busting my ass trying to get all the branches picked up for the storm that never happened.

My sister seemed to like him, and all was good. Or, so I thought.

Until my sister started asking me to get her drugs

And, then, asked him to get her drugs

Then, I kicked her out.

Sept 2

Ayup

I couldn't take it anymore. She was disrespecting me all the damn time. She wouldn't talk with me; slept for like three days straight to the point that Maintenance guy kept asking if we should check on her. I was checking on her, she was sleeping...and drinking...and doing drugs.

SMDH

Here we were, busting our asses to get ready for the hurricane and she couldn't even get her own plate of food.

I

Could

Not

Continue

I contacted family, trying to get help.

No one helped

So, I told her I loved her, but that she had to go. And, she left.

And, we still kept getting ready for the hurricane that never happened.

More tomorrow, this was a lot for me to relive.

Thank You for Reading

Happy Friday

Change the World

By

Eric Clapton

If I could reach the stars
Pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart
So you could see the truth

That this love I have inside
Is everything it seems
But for now I find
It's only in my dreams

And I can change the world
I will be the sunlight in your universe
You would think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could change the world

If I could be king
Even for a day
I'd take you as my queen
I'd have it no other way

And our love would rule
In this kingdom we have made
'Til then I'd be a fool
Wishing for the day

And I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You would think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could change the world
Baby, if I could change the world

I could change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You would think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could change the world
Baby, if I could change the world
Baby, if I could change the world

Secret Agent Rabbit Origin Story

The Origin Story has begun


SpunkyMonkeyz58 62M
1297 posts
11/22/2019 4:21 pm

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EnigmaInitiative replies on 11/23/2019 5:44 am:
Hugs my freeeeeendz in truth!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Awrooooooooooooooooooooo
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Puuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurfect

6inchjoey 49M  
1176 posts
11/22/2019 4:30 pm

Sounds like where both riding the same train with all the shit we been thru and yeah I had to kick my brother out last week too just sat around smoke dope watch porn and do jack shit and I got sick of it and he had to tell him to go even thou he is family I couldn't handle it no more and I agree love is not perfect but just do the best we can that's all we can do.


EnigmaInitiative replies on 11/23/2019 5:45 am:
In some ways, I think we can all relate to each other with our struggles...wouldn't you say?

Thanks for coming by

Logan0867 52M
190 posts
11/22/2019 7:52 pm

They're tough to follow through on but everyone needs boundaries. They help keep us from getting overwhelmed. *hugs*


EnigmaInitiative replies on 11/23/2019 5:46 am:
Yes dear, we've talked about this dear...yes dear.

I'm kidding, I know babe, I'm getting so much better about it.

Hugs

author51 57F  
94531 posts
11/23/2019 12:47 am

Oh your sister is on a path to destruction..Not good my friend, but good for you for letting her go.Hard when it is family and they take advantage of you like she did..She needs help for sure..xx

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


EnigmaInitiative replies on 11/23/2019 5:47 am:
It was tough, but you know...sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. It wasn't doing either of us any favors having her here.

Happy Saturday My Friend!!

citizen4722 62M  
67122 posts
11/23/2019 8:27 am

Don't blame yourself for kicking your sister out. I know she's family but you couldn't go on like that.


EnigmaInitiative replies on 11/23/2019 4:25 pm:
I still kind of do, but in a way I know there was no way to continue with her treating me like she did.

Thanks for your support.

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