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Ruby Tuesday........on a Sunday.....  

KtMnDu 68M
7228 posts
10/27/2013 8:03 am
Ruby Tuesday........on a Sunday.....


I guess it is about the anticipation, or maybe about wishful thinking........how some event which hasn't happened yet can consume one's thoughts so thoroughly.......I get so sucked in by something that hasn't happened.....now, I don't feel that I over-think it......there is a reality that I keep in mind.......I like to think I am quite realistic, and yet one needs to be open to the possibilities, no matter how remote they might be.....and as such I like to think anything is possible, and so I hope for the sky......it will all go my way, the way as I envision it in my perfect world view...........

Such extremes.......it is all possible, and yet the reality of it is quite improbable.....back and forth, up and down......this could be really good, and yet probably not quite that good..........

One needs to find some comfort in some middle ground, or risk going crazy........and yet moments of crazy have their attraction. Maybe that's how we balance it out......we alternate between overly-cautious restraint / pessimism.....and wild abandon / unrealistic optimism......... heck of a way to live, though, with those highs and lows so extreme...........

I used to follow football here in San Diego......season tickets to the Chargers.......lot of good times there..........but now, I don't even pay attention anymore. It got old......I would go into every game with those high hopes, and when that hope was dashed by narrow misses or big screw-ups, it sucked, big time. The aggravation got to be too much, and so I moved on.....it just wasn't fun any more.......

Those games I had no control over. My life I do.

I suspect a lot of this reflection comes with age.......of having lived a bit, experienced some things, and hopefully learned from it all. Actually, learning something is one thing, but finding a way to apply that knowledge to ones benefit is the challenge.........and I am quite challenged at times......but I stay after it........

And so I am hopeful, yet tempered by reality..........all so wanting, but knowing not all is possible......that she is out there, and yet probably not exactly as I imagine..........and so there is a balance, and I'm ok with it..............though I do lose sight of it every so often...........

And so I make new friends, and they bring to me a comfort I can't generate by myself....some become closer than others, but I hope I do as much for them as they do for me........I probably come up short in letting them know just how much I appreciate their time with me, but I try to get that across............

And of course, there is a song lyric which is relevant...........the Stones........Ruby Tuesday......."Lose your dreams, and you will lose your mind"............

So often, I just want to put my head on her lap, and feel her fingers in my hair..........

MyNameIsKay 59F  
11823 posts
10/27/2013 6:01 pm

This is very sweet..."hope" is my favorite word, and yet I'm not sure I have gotten to the part where I temper it with reality...

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KtMnDu 68M
6214 posts
10/28/2013 4:55 am

Thanks for the comment, Kay.......I keep after that balance, but not sure if I will ever, really get there.....my comfort with it all comes and goes.....at this moment, I struggle a bit........


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