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Playing coy  

ShedrivestaxiSF 54F
339 posts
3/11/2015 1:38 am

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Playing coy

Tonight was a normal slow Tuesday night. I did go to the airport first but while I was there I talked to a male friend on the phone. I have known him for a little over a year but we kind of lost touch a couple of months ago. It was good catching up and learning more about him. Then the questions started, like when was the last time I had a boyfriend, was I with the father of my and other personal questions were asked.

I was raised in a bubble or it at least felt like I did. I learned things mostly on my own through reading (mostly romance novels) and television. I was a shy and even more shy . I was always an A-B student in high school and had many friends of different clicks as well. Since I was so shy, I didn’t go to parties or even date anyone in high school. I did have many, many crushes on boys from my school but I never did anything more than talk to them when I had too. I never was much into drinking alcohol or doing any kind of drugs. I was a good . In college I started to come out of my shell but I still was shy, not really drinking and no drugs at all. I didn’t have my first boyfriend until I was about 21. That was when I had my first kiss as well. The kiss was okay but didn’t really do what I thought it was going to do for me. Things happened and we broke up. I didn’t really date again until I was 23. He was a guy I had met through a friend years before. We went on a few very nice dates and one night we went back to his parent’s house and we went into a camper they had in their backyard. We started making out and next thing I know we are having sex. I wasn’t sure what to expect but it wasn’t as fun and enjoyable as I thought it might be. Needless to say, he didn’t know I had never had sex. It was all okay. We dated for over a year and then he asked me to marry him. Got married, became pregnant and separated all in the span of 8 months. Fun times. My ex, is now a friend and my is AMAZING!

This is the start of my kind of sexual life. There isn’t much because sex at first was a non issue for me. I enjoyed it but I never had an orgamism with someone. I was able to kind of have them when I was alone but not often. On and off over the past 30+ sex hasn’t been a big deal for me. I have a few times gone more than 5 years without a sexual partner and I have been just fine. I take care of myself when I need too.

About 4 years ago I started blogging on this web site with a different name. At first I didn’t know what I wanted from this web site. I thought it was a little bit more than I wanted. I drew a lot of attention when I first signed up. So much attention I couldn’t handle it! I didn’t answer emails because guys were asking for things I didn’t or wasn’t ready to talk about with them. So I started to blog. While blogging I kind of found myself. I say kind of because I still play like I do not know what you are talking about, most of the time I do. I can be a little blonde every once in a while.

It is funny when people get into my taxi and swear, they quickly say they are sorry and they shouldn’t talk like that. Or they want me to take them to a strip club but do not want to ask me to take them. Strange. I think I look like a Mom and some times I am treated like I am their Mom. Is that good or bad? I don’t know.

Sometimes I play like I don’t understand or want to talk about sex. I understand and know much more than I let on. I just was not raised to talk or act on that knowledge. Sometimes holding things back is better than letting everyone know what you know. Following me? I hope so, because it is hard to explain it.

Why I do what I do? I have no idea. Maybe it is because the lead female in most romance novels is the innocent and I want to be treated as an innocent. Maybe? Who knows. Plus I am not sure I really know how to flirt or even know when someone is flirting with me. Crazy, I know. I can tell when others are being flirted with but not myself. Maybe it is because I don’t feel I deserve it? Maybe I feel I am too old? Too heavy?? I don’t know but I just don’t see it.

Okay, does this feel like a pity party for me? Well, it shouldn’t because I am feeling really good about myself today. Don’t care. Love me!

Back to being coy. I know things. I read 50 Shades of Grey before it became big and thought is was a little tame. I have read historical romance novels that have more sex and in much better detail than 50 Shades. I still would like to see the movie but I do not have anyone to go and see it with. I guess I will wait until it is out in Redbox or on Netflicks. I will have to watch when no one is home as well. Maybe on a Monday early. Then I can watch and do what I need to do before I have to go anywhere.

I feel like I have been babbling, tonight was a fun and boring night. Hoping tomorrow is busier. When is the next conference? I don’t know.

Thank you very much for taking the time to read my blog! Love you very much!

Ps. I have been playing the Hot or Not game again. Sorry if I hotlisted you but I will go through and remove them in a few. Sorry.

Thank you very much for reading my blog!

I love you very much!

citizen4722 62M  
67404 posts
3/11/2015 1:45 pm

I was shy growing up and still am a little to that extent. I'm like you and have had a long 'dry spell' regarding sex. Sometimes because of my rheumatic condition it was just too painful. I do prefer a woman on top or spooning.
It's surprising how much you can learn just by following different bloggers.

ShedrivestaxiSF replies on 3/11/2015 7:24 pm:
Happy to hear I am not alone.

Bloggers are here to say what they think, feel, love, want, rant or just about anything. That is why I blog here versus some other site.

FEAB1968 51F
4446 posts
3/14/2015 4:27 pm

If you have read much of my blog you'll know I don't do coy very well...lol.

There are many times the passengers apologize for saying curse words in front of me too. Many times I am quick to tell them there is no need to apologize as I use to teach kindergarten and have heard every curse word known to man...hahaha!

My being open on this site is how I am IRL, While I don't begin a conversation about sex with my passengers, I will have a dialogue if they engage me in one, but that of course depends on the client and my read on whether they can handle it.

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ShedrivestaxiSF replies on 4/2/2015 1:39 pm:
Wow! Have you ever had sex with a passenger? Or have you ever had anything bad happen with a passenger in your taxi?

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