Hopefully the last post about......her
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Posted:Dec 7, 2020 5:02 pm
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2021 11:32 pm 126 Views
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I had a couple of epiphanies this week, courtesy of my mindless job that leaves so much time to think. Several times a the same question would pop into my head. What if? What if I'd done this or that differently? What if I'd said this or that? Being brutally honest, the answer was always 'it wouldn't have changed anything' or 'it might have delayed things slightly'. She needed a life of leisure, excitement and unrestricted drinking more than she needed the love of a good man. The good things I could provide for her just weren't enough to overcome the things I couldn't provide for her. And shortly after that the second (way more important) epiphany . This was her nature and I was wasting a lot of emotion railing against it. Should I be mad at a duck for quacking? Or a fish for swimming? Or a bird for flying? Nope. That's their nature. They can't change it. It's just what they are. And the same applies to her. It's just her nature. To be mad, or to wish things were different, is just foolish and a waste of my emotions. I think I've earned a little peace with that. Now, on with the rest of my life.
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