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I'm still wanting to try this, and yet no one has wanted to do this to me yet.  

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6/8/2021 11:30 am
I'm still wanting to try this, and yet no one has wanted to do this to me yet.


I just want to do something that I have thought of nearly every night for around years. I might have had the chance to do it, but was way too afraid of the situation that I was already in at the time to even have any thought beyond what was happening to me at that moment... But, that situation was what made me start imagining and wanting to do something so bad, that it frustrates me when I start thinking about it. It is mostly because when I start thinking about it, i spend hours looking for someone, anyone to help me get that experience for the first time, and I never can find anyone... And just when I think I do, they turn out to be just some person who just wants to waste people's time, time that could have been used to find someone else who may have been real and not wasting someone's time, time that they cannot get back ever again.

I want to be bound, blindfolded, and have endowed men at both ends of me at the same time, for as long as they want, and as much as they want. I just want to be bound in ways that put me into positions that makes me stay in vulnerable positions for hung men to easily be able to insert their dominance into me, while also being blindfolded so I get to experience more of the feeling of it all (honestly, I just don't want to see or be seen while it is going on, because I'm embarrassed of it all and I just want to enjoy it while they make me feel like they are having their way with me and I am unable to stop them), while they are inside my mouth and "back door", both at the same time, just having their fun with me. (<<my only must have)... Finishing with it squirting down my throat would be a plus (having someone do that, while making me feel every throb as they hold it inside as deep as they can while making it known that they are doing it as they do it, as they show their dominance over me, is the 2nd thing I have really wanted done to me at least once(in this case, I would want it done multiple times tho), for about as long as I've dreamed of having the first one done to me), but I would be bound, so I couldn't say no anyways, or at least make them stop... but why would I? Unless they wanted me to role play, that is, Lol( and I have thought about wearing whatever they wanted me to, if they brought women's clothing, even though I never have, I'd wear it if it was what it took to get what I wanted... Even shaving everything, even though it wouldn't be much anyway since I'm already naturally smooth most everywhere). Dirty talk of any kind is something that I would want too, preferably something that would be demeaning or something that made me feel like i was being dominated, since I want to really get the feeling like I'm being made into someone's play thing or submissive to them while they were doing it.

To be honest tho, To me, it is weird to think about it, and then step back and know that this is something that want as much as I do. I feel even weirder typing it, but I can't even bring myself to say it out loud, I just feel so embarrassed that I would feel like that or want that to be done to me... But I want it to be done to me more than anything else I can think of, even to the point that it is all I want to do and think about now... I even fantasize at times about belonging to men that would give me that all the time. Don't get me mixed up tho, I'm not into any of that extra pain stuff like whips, cutting, slapping, slave stuff (except basically what I wrote earlier already if they would've considered it that, but I am not doing any of that weird slave stuff, like being<b> furniture </font></b>or cleaning deliberate spills and stuff just for someone's amusement) or any other over the top fetishes that wouldn't be agreed on beforehand... But, I do know that I just want this- I want to be used like a toy, and feel like I am unable to stop them from having their way with me, while bound into positions that leaves me vulnerable and unable to stop anyone from being able to use either of my ends whenever they wanted, as deep as they wanted, as thick as they wanted, as long as they wanted, and as often as they wanted...

Sadly, for some reason, I have wanted to do this for so long, that I get frustrated when I think about it. I get frustrated and anxious because I feel like it is getting to be more and more distant and out of my reach at this point, and I won't get a chance at getting to experience any of that at this rate... I don't know how to look for people that would want to do that with me, and I also have no clue as to where I would even begin to look neither. I just wish that there was some better way that would help someone find me that wanted to do this to someone like me... Or even some place that I could go that would definitely get me what I wanted, then I wouldn't have to be left just to imagine it all the time, with doubts that it will ever become a reality.
Honestly, I would easily pack some clothes, and move wherever, if someone came and picked me up, took me to a motel or anywhere that were private, did all of that to me, and wanted to do it more and more... I would go anywhere they took me if they wanted to do that every day, especially if it were multiple times every day, I would easily go anywhere they wanted me to go... I would have to say this though, unless they had a sex machine that took the place of one person, there would definitely have to be two or more men there, both wanting to do this thing with me, just to make me want to move... That said, after seeing what one of those machines can do in videos, I'm open to go with a man who has one of those, depends on what they were wanting to do... I suppose.
I just wanted to get that off my mind, because I dreamt about it after thinking about it for hours last night, then all morning, and hopefully someone else reads this and could give some tips, insight, or ideas on the topic. Oh, and I hope you're not offended by any of it, but if you are, I'm not really sorry about it, because if you got this far, you were probably interested in it too.

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