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clittywhisperer1 56M
56 posts
6/24/2020 10:06 am
times they are a changing

As I get older , I become more philosophical .The are raised, the former wife is almost paid off .I found an amazing woman ,but it just could not be made work due circumstances .I walked away ,foolishly but necessarily .I found another woman by miracle that I thought would be the answer .It has not worked out well .She is a fine person but the ghosts in her life do not allow her be a good mate .Moving on is tough but better after 4 than 20 of unhappiness .Life is what happens. no regrets , We both grew from the experience . She got much healthier and I learned how be patient and focus on the good things .It is not about , things, ,cars< trips, being liked by everyone having clothes ,jewels , having a big fancy house or flashy cars ,those are all empty in the end and fade . I have had success and have been down . I survived both .Happier when down and humble ,and alone than when successful living with stress and lies .I have faith that all things work as they are supposed in the end , we just don't know what that will be until it happens ,We have only control over material decisions .Most decisions really do not matter in the end . Only 3 count . What are my values in life ? what am I going do with my life be a good citizen and support myself ? and who am I going spend my life with ? those have be gotten right and all else will be just fine . I got 2 out of 3 twice . I love my profession ,I hate how circumstances have made it so hard be successful consistently .People and laws change , attitudes do not change enough at times It is hard reach people , they cannot think straight everything is a momentary meme distract I crave deeper meaning my life at this point .. If I can help one person I am satisfied I have done my best at this point . I think a great deal ,try find solutions .If no solution is obvious I let it go a higher power .Sometimes you just need be still and listen .It will come you if you do not chase after things , Simple say ,Tough to do . I still have hope for getting that right woman back in my life .She has reconnected with ,we have spoken a bit , I know she thinks of ,I know she truly loved .The rest will work itself out as I get myself back on track and just be still. I am grateful , hopeful, at peace mostly ,and looking the next . my buddy says go get laid , have fun .It has no appeal .I cannot enjoy meaningless sex.I need the whole deal full connection mind body heart and soul enjoy it . I am fine with that .

author51 57F  
102822 posts
6/24/2020 11:20 pm

Like you my friend,I can not have meaningless sex either..Once we have had the best there is no settling for anything less..You have a great outlook on things and thank you for sharing them with us here..xoxo

One can never have enough JOY in their life...

clittywhisperer1 56M
1415 posts
6/25/2020 6:17 am

thank you joy .I sometimes feel I am the only one lol. tonight my buddy and I go get texas do brasil meat comas , lol the soon to be ex and I are settling into a more even keeled situation .I do like her , I do love her. I am attracted to her still but it would not ever be the way I would need .Now my old gf has been in contact and there are positive signs. big smileys drawn on a letter are a sign lol and she said ciao..... for now .ok I cheat a little by using Italian ,haha ,but i'm waiting it out until she comes to me and we see each other .It could be a long while lol. Communication is key, accurate honest communication is dead in this society .too many addled brains and empty souls I am afraid .My friend calls them meat puppets or fleshy robots haha. ALL the best to you in the days ahead .

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