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hotmamamm 44F  
9324 posts
12/28/2019 3:28 pm
I Just Want To Find Inner Peace...

I feel invisible in the outside world. I have learned to feel comfortable in my loneliness. I trade my joy for my protection. I do not know how to accept love without rejecting it. I hide behind my defense mechanisms to feel safe, however I am not. My mind and my conscience is my own worst enemy. I carry a lot of burdens. I feel worthless and embarrassed of I am. 3 years ago I was so confident and sexually liberated. That is not the person I see in the mirror anymore. I just wish I knew how to give away their power of what they did to me and move on. I want to reconnect with my inner slut without feeling shame or guilt. I just want to feel inner peace. Hopefully the year 2020 I will learn to accept me.

#MyTruth..


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
12/28/2019 3:31 pm

Insidious is a blind inception. What is reality with all these questions?


Leegs2012 47M
51133 posts
12/28/2019 3:32 pm

You can be my inner slut anytime...you are gorgeous!!


Tmptrzz 57F  
74822 posts
12/28/2019 3:34 pm

You know my friend you are as SEXY as ever, and I hope you find that inner peace you seek. We are all here for you, and you should always feel safe. And if you ever need someone to talk to I am here for you..I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend..

Just your average every day run of the mill nana here!!!


ULIXBIG 65M
6826 posts
12/28/2019 3:35 pm

Accept yourself, Jeanie! Be your own best friend. You have everything to be proud of!
My very best wishes for 2020!


Northshore2031 41M  
41 posts
12/28/2019 3:37 pm

I am very sorry to hear this. To a point I know how you feel. If you ever want to talk please feel free to hit me up. Hope things get better for you. If I don't get to talk with you before. Happy New Year!!!


Stelio_Kantos 41M  
1 post
12/28/2019 3:42 pm

You’re beautiful, I hope you start seeing it again soon!


1salesman3 65M
4724 posts
12/28/2019 3:44 pm

Jeanie you are beautiful lady. Keep telling yourself what you want and great things will happen.


HAMONMAN 60M
10061 posts
12/28/2019 3:49 pm



Time to talk to a professional rather than rely on well-intentioned comments from bloggers.


lonlyforlove2 77M  
3515 posts
12/28/2019 3:49 pm

You as all of us do see the beauty, for some reason you must be seeing a distorted view. I do hope you find out just what is in your mind that is standing in your way. A lot of people here and most will be glad to lend an ear to hear your thoughts. Here's hoping for a Happy New year for you and to turn over that new leaf that seems to be in your way....

Be sure to look in at lonlyforlove2 . It may make you smile!!


stopbyandsayboo 48M
966 posts
12/28/2019 3:50 pm

I think your a beautiful person inside and out.. I am sure you will find a special person to embrace both.. I too struggle with loss and every day is a journey for me to find inner peace.. Like Tempz says.. I offer my ear to listen and hear if you need a gentle soul to be there

JUST ME A TALL PASSIONATE MAN WITH A HUGE HEART


mamacita38dd 41F  
48430 posts
12/28/2019 3:51 pm

Wishing you nothing but the best in 2020 and always my beautiful friend

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Naughtypursuit 52F  
2562 posts
12/28/2019 3:56 pm

You are a beautiful person inside and out. You will get your power back, there are lots of avenues out there to help you get that back. Stay strong.


Buddieboy11 58M/64F  
201 posts
12/28/2019 4:04 pm

Wish you a very Happy New Year with a new found power and inner Peace..


shadowtoo69 64M  
885 posts
12/28/2019 4:13 pm

Hope that you find the path you seek in the new year.


mrwalleye15 55M  
31 posts
12/28/2019 4:21 pm

I'm here to help in anyway I can. I seen you on cam the other night, looks like you're headed in the right way!


grizz54545454 72M
87 posts
12/28/2019 4:29 pm

hope 2020 is better for you


Looknfind18 67M  
4092 posts
12/28/2019 4:58 pm

2020, Hope its a great year for you.


mc_justmc 59M  
5557 posts
12/28/2019 5:00 pm

What a coincidence! I too would like to find your inner piece......... wait, I'm not sure we're talking about the same kind of piece...


NJGUY08090 53M
2896 posts
12/28/2019 5:03 pm

Hope you feel stronger every day- Have a Happy New Year - many of us are here to support you . Share your thoughts with us on our blogs too


kahnfused 59M
109 posts
12/28/2019 5:03 pm

you'll figure it out...thanks for sharing honesty


Story435 72M
3039 posts
12/28/2019 5:19 pm

Hi sweetheart!
Do what you want nothing wrong with being sexually active it is good for you! Just open up and have some fun!
Butch


LimerickJohn 65M
1047 posts
12/28/2019 5:25 pm

What a beautiful smile and eyes you have.

What I have read of yours here in blogland suggests you have a beautiful inside also.

Keep on looking and you will see what we all see in you and that is just pure beauty. ☘


powercaps716 63M
19080 posts
12/28/2019 5:29 pm

 take it one day at a time, don't rush  to find inner peace it
will come, and 2020 will be a great year for you, 


Sexczy69 64M
2800 posts
12/28/2019 5:32 pm

you are only 44?????? wow I could not tell.....


hungndumb42 44M
26 posts
12/28/2019 5:33 pm

You are a beautiful woman. Keep your head up and don't let anyone get you down. Hope for the best in the new year


lighthousecollec 57F  
236 posts
12/28/2019 5:57 pm

You are a very beautiful lady . I have been struggling with finding myself again as well. If you need some one to talk to I am here. God does here our prayers amd he will answer them.

Hope all your dreams come true. Light


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
12/28/2019 5:57 pm

    Quoting Sexczy69:
    you are only 44?????? wow I could not tell.....
Yes I am 44. Sorry if you thought I was younger..lol


Shots30 44M  
2292 posts
12/28/2019 6:06 pm

I am sure with the right people by your side or through other channels you'll be able to find your inner peace and that inner slut you so adore and enjoy! I know you can do it. I am always here to chat if you need it!

Cheers!


laughwithsinners 58M  
26 posts
12/28/2019 6:07 pm

We can never control the actions of other people only how we react to those actions. There are people in the world those goal it is to hurt others. Some physically some mentally and sometimes we happen to be in the wrong place wrong time. We feel pain for a reason to help keep us safe. Pain also makes us hesitant to put ourselves out there again. Humans are social animals and need others and there are those waiting for you to reach out to them. You may not have meet them yet, but you will if you seek. I read somewhere. Live your life so as to never be ashamed of what other may say of you, even if it is not true. I believe this we must live for ourselves not others, own time here is to short. The past is behind us and the future comes tomorrow the only thing we can be sure of is the now. Embrace it, tear down your walls, forgive yourself and allow yourself to live.


benard69 63M/63F  
5048 posts
12/28/2019 6:12 pm

You are way over thinking life...Your cool so jump in and enjoy your self/life!


fuegovital 55M
5333 posts
12/28/2019 6:16 pm

Maybe you're wrong, maybe your mind and your conscience are your best allies and they try to show you a new path.
No one can free themselves from the burdens of their past, they must be accepted and move on.
Sometimes our instincts encourage us to do things that we later regret, so it is very important to think carefully about everything we do in life.
You should not be ashamed to show yourself as you are, but if that makes you feel bad maybe you shouldn't do it.
You are still as beautiful as ever.
Kisses and happy 2020.


Si quieres escribirme, este es mi... Buzn Para que no te dejen sin palabras


PAWAPh 43M
11461 posts
12/28/2019 6:30 pm

    Quoting hotmamamm:
    Insidious is a blind inception. What is reality with all these questions?
Song Mansion, By NF.

*I See The Inner Slut In Your Piercing Eyes*

Have A Slutful Weekend!!

Jack


ptit_cochon2 48M
17 posts
12/28/2019 7:36 pm

would like to found with you xxx


agedfun1 72M  
536 posts
12/28/2019 8:00 pm

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Cpllooking6671 53M/48F  
2453 posts
12/28/2019 8:00 pm

As others are saying- you are a beautiful woman- inside and out.
Kudos to you on knowing your inner slut is there and acting on it.
So glad you are back-Always be sure to take care of you first- no one else will the way you need it to be done.


topherific 57M
4608 posts
12/28/2019 9:58 pm


Desir4Fire 45M
2215 posts
12/28/2019 10:06 pm

Queen Janeane,
The truth is that you are a wonderful person and a genuine woman.
You only need you to tell you how great you are.
Make yourself happy and win your inner peace.
Love oneself first!!


coolpoolguy3 53M
2367 posts
12/28/2019 10:52 pm

Dear sweet lady, I wish nothing but the best for you in the new year. Remember seeking help is a sign of strength not weakness and a good counselor(check references) can help you find what you're looking for.


pacnwlover42 51M
7549 posts
12/28/2019 10:56 pm

I wish I could hug and hold you and tell you how amazing you are.

Funny women are incredibly sexy!


author51 57F  
88263 posts
12/28/2019 11:00 pm

Never give anyone the power of control over how you feel, your self esteem and your self worth as a person my friend. You are so worth it all my friend.My thoughts and prayers are with you and the journey of discovering once again your inner peace and the beautiful woman both inside and out you are my friend...xoxo

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


jajo696 65F
1658 posts
12/29/2019 1:04 am

It might be too early for you, but this is a perfect time....a new decade...to have the mantra of " I will find myself this year and not allow anyone/thing to circumvent that mission". Say it over n over n over daily...even in the mirror, out loud and silently.

I too have a journey ,and have developed a mantra . I hope we both come out on the other side....healthy and happy. With wishes of positive vibes and peace to you ~~


toolswh1969 50M
30 posts
12/29/2019 2:17 am

Jeanie you are a beautiful woman.
Sexy and beautiful inside thing do take time to heal
If you ever need a ear to listen or a shoulder .
You have one. Keep safe my friend and the new year will be better 💋


profcoquin27bis 55M
2824 posts
12/29/2019 5:22 am

nice smile !!


LickYourYoni 71M
553 posts
12/29/2019 5:42 am

I am curious what happened in the last three years. Perhaps baby steps can help you return. The good thing is that you know where you want to be.


I_willoralu 45M
1529 posts
12/29/2019 5:44 am

You are a beautiful lady, inside and out. Even without showing your inner slut you are still beautiful. I do hope you find the old you like you want but I would enjoy your company anyway you are

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dreamon78 59M  
1201 posts
12/29/2019 5:53 am

The one horrible truth that I have learned from the women I have met on this site is the unbelievable amount of emotional scarring has been caused by men that supposedly loved them. Incredibly beautiful and vibrant women that saw themselves as the exact opposites, even long after the relationship has ended. It was heartbreaking.

The most rewarding experiences I have ever had from being part of this site was helping a few very cherished friends heal from that pain and escape the prison of thoughts those bastards created.

I love to follow your blog because you are one of the most beautiful, vibrant, sweetest and delightful women I’ve ever come across. You’re the girl next door we’ve all dreamed of. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.

Life's a journey not a destination

Please checkout my blog dreamon78


weaponxx69 36M
115 posts
12/29/2019 6:12 am

you just need that right person to bring that slut out and keep it out. If you are putting your slut actions on one person then you wont feel so bad. I just wish it was me pounding that little golden gopher.


azriel1970 49M  
28990 posts
12/29/2019 6:23 am

You and me both sweetie! This is a New Year and a New Decade!!!!!!! We should just run with it and be happy and healthy and joyful!!! Be as naughty as little or as much as you want! Just be the best YOU that you can be! the rest is all not worth it!


RockKickAss69XXX 51M  
896 posts
12/29/2019 6:24 am

You can Accomplish anything!
We are always stronger than we believe we can ever be.
You've beat far worse.
I believe in you, Now you believe in yourself.


wjb1958 61M
3687 posts
12/29/2019 7:43 am

You are a Very Beautiful and a Very Sexy Lady . Hopefully You will realize that soon. Happy New Year .


Dtts43rt35 61M
6142 posts
12/29/2019 7:51 am

A Happy New Year you wonderful!

Rio flows in its bed and goes around with its waters!


reallyready46 60M
1173 posts
12/29/2019 9:20 am

Not sure what happened to you. From your older posts it seemed liker you were on the level and knew who you were. Many on here are not that put together. So what are your fears? Where are you weak at?
Take time to ask yourself these things. Learn to listen, find time just for yourself. The answers may not come as soon as you ask, often its more like an onion, peeling back a layer at a time.


travellerabc123 50M
3726 posts
12/29/2019 9:53 am

You hold all the cards. You always have and you always will.
No one can make you feel less than without your consent.
Realize the positive vibes your friends are sending you, and love yourself.

Embrace the suck


scott6250 57M
28284 posts
12/29/2019 9:54 am

My dear friend I certainly hope that you find all of the answers to your questions and that you find yourself and the true strength within you. You are a marvelous lady and a beautiful woman. God bless and keep you my friend.

"Sweet, steamy, sensuous kisses light the bright fires of passionate lust within us." scott6250


dublos 54M  
133 posts
12/29/2019 10:12 am

Growing takes work, and you've got a goal that's worth that work.

Just remember to be good to yourself in the process.

But if I could suggest?

Inner Peace isn't an end point. It's something we all have to constantly work toward because the world all too often throws curves and obstacles at us. Don't beat yourself up for not getting there fast enough.

As another old saying...

Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.

You are worthy of care, so make sure you give yourself that care.

And when you're ready to open yourself up and let someone else care for you too, then do so.

There are enough external things beating you up and talking you down, don't let them push you into talking down to yourself.


misskissin 56F  
84816 posts
12/29/2019 11:33 am

Oh beautiful lady I am so sorry you are struggling with this. You are an amazing woman and deserve all of your heart desires. You have many friends here to listen and support you in all you do. Please know you are not along.

Huge hugs Gorgeous.


h4rry66 53M
1916 posts
12/29/2019 2:57 pm

I accept you just as you are. X


Lonely16842 54M  
836 posts
12/29/2019 5:40 pm

You are not invisible to me. You are a very beautiful, vibrant woman. I wish I could be there to comfort you in person. 😘


c0cksr1ng 57M
2566 posts
12/29/2019 6:25 pm

Always a sexy lady


hugz111 59M  
285 posts
12/30/2019 7:51 am

You are an amazing lady


Lostlicker87069 30M
63 posts
12/30/2019 9:05 am

Your amazing an beautiful you will find peace.. Keep moving forward and I hope you have an amazing new year 4283369


poloarmani 61M
93 posts
12/30/2019 9:37 am

hope the coming year 2020 will be a great one for you peace and love


vj1879999 31M
1 post
12/30/2019 10:44 am

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Aden0069 51M
127 posts
12/30/2019 11:02 am

I hope you have a fantastic 2020! We like you just the way you are!


CrustEnsueGaius7 60M
45 posts
12/30/2019 2:29 pm

You can be whatever you want as long you truly desire it. Just be happy and joyful in the journey.


badteacherAK 63M  
1519 posts
12/30/2019 7:36 pm

Funny. I see you as someone who radiates joy. To me the warmth of your smile reveals the person you are. I have seen you as someone who has sought pleasure without fear or hesitation. Shows how little I know.

Hopefully in the new year you will find a place to radiate your beauty and seek your pleasures without fear. I wish that for you this year. Or sooner.

Enjoy the journey and the exploration to recover who you want to be.


BATTLEMASTERPete 48M
4 posts
12/30/2019 8:35 pm

Well Darlin, I will accept you, even if you cannot.


Overal5 35M
22 posts
12/30/2019 10:39 pm

beautiful face


URfantasyfilled 45M
191 posts
12/31/2019 4:29 am

I do not know what happened to you, but you are still a beautiful woman with big beautiful eyes, you are sexy as hell, and the girl next door!


_IKanCu2_ 101M
2489 posts
1/1/2020 2:03 pm




~ Forgive Past Sin*z ~
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hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:00 pm

    Quoting hotmamamm:
    Insidious is a blind inception. What is reality with all these questions?
BOOM


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:01 pm

    Quoting Leegs2012:
    You can be my inner slut anytime...you are gorgeous!!

Your always too sweet to me leegs Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:02 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you SelflessLover. I hope 2020 is great for yoy!


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:04 pm

    Quoting Tmptrzz:
    You know my friend you are as SEXY as ever, and I hope you find that inner peace you seek. We are all here for you, and you should always feel safe. And if you ever need someone to talk to I am here for you..I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend..
Thank you so much sweet friend. Feeling safe is a big factor.I appreciate your friendship. Happy Thursday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:04 pm

    Quoting ULIXBIG:
    Accept yourself, Jeanie! Be your own best friend. You have everything to be proud of!
    My very best wishes for 2020!

Thank you sweet friend


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:05 pm

    Quoting Northshore2031:
    I am very sorry to hear this. To a point I know how you feel. If you ever want to talk please feel free to hit me up. Hope things get better for you. If I don't get to talk with you before. Happy New Year!!!
Thank you NorthShore. Happy new year to you. It was great seeing you in the chat room the other day


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:07 pm

    Quoting Northshore2031:
    I am very sorry to hear this. To a point I know how you feel. If you ever want to talk please feel free to hit me up. Hope things get better for you. If I don't get to talk with you before. Happy New Year!!!
Thank you. I appreciate your kind words. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:08 pm

    Quoting 1salesman3:
    Jeanie you are beautiful lady. Keep telling yourself what you want and great things will happen.
Thank you 1salesman.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:08 pm

    Quoting HAMONMAN:


    Time to talk to a professional rather than rely on well-intentioned comments from bloggers.
Your point is fair my friend. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:09 pm

    Quoting lonlyforlove2:
    You as all of us do see the beauty, for some reason you must be seeing a distorted view. I do hope you find out just what is in your mind that is standing in your way. A lot of people here and most will be glad to lend an ear to hear your thoughts. Here's hoping for a Happy New year for you and to turn over that new leaf that seems to be in your way....
Like I said my mind is my own worst enemy. Thank you for the kind words. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:10 pm

    Quoting stopbyandsayboo:
    I think your a beautiful person inside and out.. I am sure you will find a special person to embrace both.. I too struggle with loss and every day is a journey for me to find inner peace.. Like Tempz says.. I offer my ear to listen and hear if you need a gentle soul to be there
Thank you so much. I hope you find your inner peace as well. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:11 pm

    Quoting mamacita38dd:
    Wishing you nothing but the best in 2020 and always my beautiful friend
Thank you so much mama. You will always be my beautiful friend as well.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:13 pm

    Quoting Naughtypursuit:
    You are a beautiful person inside and out. You will get your power back, there are lots of avenues out there to help you get that back. Stay strong.
Thank you Naughty. I'm so embarrassed about this post but I thought if I released my true feelings it could make me stronger. I appreciate your kind words. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:14 pm

    Quoting Buddieboy11:
    Wish you a very Happy New Year with a new found power and inner Peace..
Thank you so much Buddie. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:15 pm

    Quoting shadowtoo69:
    Hope that you find the path you seek in the new year.
Thank you Shadow. I hope 2020 is fantastic for you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:16 pm

    Quoting mrwalleye15:
    I'm here to help in anyway I can. I seen you on cam the other night, looks like you're headed in the right way!
Yes. Baby Steps..lol... thank you mrwalleye.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:16 pm

Thank you Grizz. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:17 pm

    Quoting Looknfind18:
    2020, Hope its a great year for you.
Thank you Lookn. I hope 2020 is fantastic for you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:18 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    What a coincidence! I too would like to find your inner piece......... wait, I'm not sure we're talking about the same kind of piece...
Lol..naughty naughty naughty..that is why I like you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:19 pm

    Quoting NJGUY08090:
    Hope you feel stronger every day- Have a Happy New Year - many of us are here to support you . Share your thoughts with us on our blogs too
Thank you NJ. I will cim visit your blog soon. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:19 pm

    Quoting kahnfused:
    you'll figure it out...thanks for sharing honesty
Thank you for listening. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:20 pm

    Quoting Story435:
    Hi sweetheart!
    Do what you want nothing wrong with being sexually active it is good for you! Just open up and have some fun!
    Butch
Yes I agree. It is very good for you. Thank you Butch. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:21 pm

    Quoting  :

Well that is my second choice..lol.. I appreciate you stopping by
Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:22 pm

    Quoting LimerickJohn:
    What a beautiful smile and eyes you have.

    What I have read of yours here in blogland suggests you have a beautiful inside also.

    Keep on looking and you will see what we all see in you and that is just pure beauty. ☘
Thank you John. I appreciate your kind words. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:22 pm

    Quoting powercaps716:
     take it one day at a time, don't rush  to find inner peace it
    will come, and 2020 will be a great year for you, 
One day at a time my friend. I appreciate your kind words. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:23 pm

    Quoting hotmamamm:
    Insidious is a blind inception. What is reality with all these questions?
Boom Boom


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:23 pm

    Quoting Sexczy69:
    you are only 44?????? wow I could not tell.....
Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:24 pm

    Quoting hungndumb42:
    You are a beautiful woman. Keep your head up and don't let anyone get you down. Hope for the best in the new year
Thank you so much hung. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 5:25 pm

    Quoting lighthousecollec:
    You are a very beautiful lady . I have been struggling with finding myself again as well. If you need some one to talk to I am here. God does here our prayers amd he will answer them.
Thank you so much lighthouse. As I stated on your blog you are beautiful too. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:13 pm

    Quoting Shots30:
    I am sure with the right people by your side or through other channels you'll be able to find your inner peace and that inner slut you so adore and enjoy! I know you can do it. I am always here to chat if you need it!

    Cheers!
Thank you Shots. I do adore my inner slut. I appreciate your kind words and enjoyed chatting with you on cam the other day. happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:15 pm

    Quoting laughwithsinners:
    We can never control the actions of other people only how we react to those actions. There are people in the world those goal it is to hurt others. Some physically some mentally and sometimes we happen to be in the wrong place wrong time. We feel pain for a reason to help keep us safe. Pain also makes us hesitant to put ourselves out there again. Humans are social animals and need others and there are those waiting for you to reach out to them. You may not have meet them yet, but you will if you seek. I read somewhere. Live your life so as to never be ashamed of what other may say of you, even if it is not true. I believe this we must live for ourselves not others, own time here is to short. The past is behind us and the future comes tomorrow the only thing we can be sure of is the now. Embrace it, tear down your walls, forgive yourself and allow yourself to live.
Thank you for your insightful words. I need to learn to accept, move on and let go. I so appreciate you stopping by and commenting. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:16 pm

    Quoting benard69:
    You are way over thinking life...Your cool so jump in and enjoy your self/life!
I agree I am overthinking it.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:18 pm

    Quoting fuegovital:
    Maybe you're wrong, maybe your mind and your conscience are your best allies and they try to show you a new path.
    No one can free themselves from the burdens of their past, they must be accepted and move on.
    Sometimes our instincts encourage us to do things that we later regret, so it is very important to think carefully about everything we do in life.
    You should not be ashamed to show yourself as you are, but if that makes you feel bad maybe you shouldn't do it.
    You are still as beautiful as ever.
    Kisses and happy 2020.

It's the maybes that make it impossible to let go
I do not know if that makes sense. I do appreciate your insight and will have to rethink my thoughts. Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:19 pm

    Quoting PAWAPh:
    Song Mansion, By NF.

    *I See The Inner Slut In Your Piercing Eyes*

    Have A Slutful Weekend!!

    Jack
One of my favorite albums. So is soooo underrated. Lol...


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:20 pm

Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:21 pm

That quote fits my thoughts perfectly. Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:22 pm

    Quoting Cpllooking6671:
    As others are saying- you are a beautiful woman- inside and out.
    Kudos to you on knowing your inner slut is there and acting on it.
    So glad you are back-Always be sure to take care of you first- no one else will the way you need it to be done.
Oh Li know she is in there..lol... Thank you for your kind words


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/2/2020 6:24 pm

    Quoting Desir4Fire:
    Queen Janeane,
    The truth is that you are a wonderful person and a genuine woman.
    You only need you to tell you how great you are.
    Make yourself happy and win your inner peace.
    Love oneself first!!
This is a battle I will win my friend. I appreciate you kind words. Happy new year to you


merlot5555 64M  
225 posts
1/2/2020 8:08 pm

.... life is a journey... sometimes easy, sometimes difficult.... what I have learned is that inner peace starts within... being easy on yourself enables others to be easy with you.... its the snowball effect... let it roll downhill ... it gets bigger and gathers strength ... it also helps to have good partners in play that are supportive and have very strong streaks of curiosity ... hope to hear all about your reawakening and adventures... in whatever forum they emerge...


Desir4Fire 45M
2215 posts
1/3/2020 3:26 am

Queen Janeane,
I know I am misspelling the hell out of your name.
It just rhymes in the phonetics ...
Much love tho...


Tall_stud1982 37M
4 posts
1/3/2020 10:22 pm

Hi how are you doing tonight ? Lovely photos !


CortonMan 46M
37 posts
1/4/2020 10:23 am

I know exactly how you feel. All of the confidence that I had years ago has been stripped by life and loss. Where I used to be the life of the party and extremely social, I now would rather stay at home and try to find a way to get back to myself of old. Be advice, just keep smiling as much as you can, laugh when the opportunity arises and makes sure that people earn you, and prove that they are worth you time. I have a feeling that there is something special inside of you...just believe it in yourself and others will follow!


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:12 pm

    Quoting coolpoolguy3:
    Dear sweet lady, I wish nothing but the best for you in the new year. Remember seeking help is a sign of strength not weakness and a good counselor(check references) can help you find what you're looking for.
Thank you coolpoolguy. It's more of the embarrassment to admit that I need help. I also k how deep down I am not weak. I appreciate your kind words. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:12 pm

    Quoting pacnwlover42:
    I wish I could hug and hold you and tell you how amazing you are.
Your so sweet pacn. Thanks for listening. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:14 pm

    Quoting author51:
    Never give anyone the power of control over how you feel, your self esteem and your self worth as a person my friend. You are so worth it all my friend.My thoughts and prayers are with you and the journey of discovering once again your inner peace and the beautiful woman both inside and out you are my friend...xoxo
Thank you Joy. Your right I should never give anyone that power. I'm gonna come back 10 times stronger. I appreciate you kind words
Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:17 pm

    Quoting jajo696:
    It might be too early for you, but this is a perfect time....a new decade...to have the mantra of " I will find myself this year and not allow anyone/thing to circumvent that mission". Say it over n over n over daily...even in the mirror, out loud and silently.

    I too have a journey ,and have developed a mantra . I hope we both come out on the other side....healthy and happy. With wishes of positive vibes and peace to you ~~
Thank you Jajo. I put this on my list of things to check out this week. From what you describe I find it very interesting. I hope you find your peace as well, and 2020 is just fabulous. I appreciate your kind words. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:18 pm

    Quoting toolswh1969:
    Jeanie you are a beautiful woman.
    Sexy and beautiful inside thing do take time to heal
    If you ever need a ear to listen or a shoulder .
    You have one. Keep safe my friend and the new year will be better 💋
Thank you my friends. I always appreciate you kind words. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:19 pm

Thank you sexy friend.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:21 pm

    Quoting LickYourYoni:
    I am curious what happened in the last three years. Perhaps baby steps can help you return. The good thing is that you know where you want to be.
I can handle baby steps..lol..Great to see you my friend. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:22 pm

    Quoting I_willoralu:
    You are a beautiful lady, inside and out. Even without showing your inner slut you are still beautiful. I do hope you find the old you like you want but I would enjoy your company anyway you are
Thank you. I meant a lot. More than you even know. I appreciate your kind words. Happy Sunday to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:24 pm

    Quoting weaponxx69:
    you just need that right person to bring that slut out and keep it out. If you are putting your slut actions on one person then you wont feel so bad. I just wish it was me pounding that little golden gopher.
Finding the right person has not been so easy..lol..but you are correct. I appreciate you stopping by and commenting. Happy Sunday to you
.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:33 pm

    Quoting dreamon78:
    The one horrible truth that I have learned from the women I have met on this site is the unbelievable amount of emotional scarring has been caused by men that supposedly loved them. Incredibly beautiful and vibrant women that saw themselves as the exact opposites, even long after the relationship has ended. It was heartbreaking.

    The most rewarding experiences I have ever had from being part of this site was helping a few very cherished friends heal from that pain and escape the prison of thoughts those bastards created.

    I love to follow your blog because you are one of the most beautiful, vibrant, sweetest and delightful women I’ve ever come across. You’re the girl next door we’ve all dreamed of. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
I agree. It is people you once loved that can leave the biggest scars however it is your mind that has the control to hold on to it or let it go. My mind is quite stubborn to the point were I am content and comfortable of being alone. Which I wouldn't have a issue with if I was truly happy. However I am not. As always thank you for your kind words and support. I appreciate it more than your know. I also owe you a email


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:35 pm

    Quoting azriel1970:
    You and me both sweetie! This is a New Year and a New Decade!!!!!!! We should just run with it and be happy and healthy and joyful!!! Be as naughty as little or as much as you want! Just be the best YOU that you can be! the rest is all not worth it!
Your absolutely right. Brand new year. Brand new decade. It is going to be awesome for both of us!! Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:36 pm

    Quoting RockKickAss69XXX:
    You can Accomplish anything!
    We are always stronger than we believe we can ever be.
    You've beat far worse.
    I believe in you, Now you believe in yourself.
Thank you Rock. I have been through worse Time to leave the pity party and move on. It is always great to see you. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 4:37 pm

    Quoting wjb1958:
    You are a Very Beautiful and a Very Sexy Lady . Hopefully You will realize that soon. Happy New Year .
Thank you wjb. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:35 pm

    Quoting Dtts43rt35:
    A Happy New Year you wonderful!
Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:39 pm

    Quoting reallyready46:
    Not sure what happened to you. From your older posts it seemed liker you were on the level and knew who you were. Many on here are not that put together. So what are your fears? Where are you weak at?
    Take time to ask yourself these things. Learn to listen, find time just for yourself. The answers may not come as soon as you ask, often its more like an onion, peeling back a layer at a time.
Thank you for you advice really. I need to learn to accept the past and move on. Not to make the same mistake again as in. It is pretty simple but hard to do. I really appreciate your comment. Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:40 pm

    Quoting travellerabc123:
    You hold all the cards. You always have and you always will.
    No one can make you feel less than without your consent.
    Realize the positive vibes your friends are sending you, and love yourself.
Thank you. I do hold the cards. 2020 is going to be fab for both of us. I appreciate you commenting. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:41 pm

    Quoting scott6250:
    My dear friend I certainly hope that you find all of the answers to your questions and that you find yourself and the true strength within you. You are a marvelous lady and a beautiful woman. God bless and keep you my friend.
Thank you sweet Scott I hope 2020 is spectacular for you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:44 pm

    Quoting dublos:
    Growing takes work, and you've got a goal that's worth that work.

    Just remember to be good to yourself in the process.

    But if I could suggest?

    Inner Peace isn't an end point. It's something we all have to constantly work toward because the world all too often throws curves and obstacles at us. Don't beat yourself up for not getting there fast enough.

    As another old saying...

    Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.

    You are worthy of care, so make sure you give yourself that care.

    And when you're ready to open yourself up and let someone else care for you too, then do so.

    There are enough external things beating you up and talking you down, don't let them push you into talking down to yourself.
Thank you. My mind is my own worst enemy. I need to learn to turn my negative thoughts to positive. I appreciate your in depth comment Very insightful and made me think. Thank you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:45 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you hung. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:47 pm

    Quoting misskissin:
    Oh beautiful lady I am so sorry you are struggling with this. You are an amazing woman and deserve all of your heart desires. You have many friends here to listen and support you in all you do. Please know you are not along.

    Huge hugs Gorgeous.
Thank you misskissin. I really do appreciate your kindness. Most females do not really support each other on this site. Happy new year


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:47 pm

    Quoting h4rry66:
    I accept you just as you are. X
Thank you so much sexy friend. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:49 pm

    Quoting Lonely16842:
    You are not invisible to me. You are a very beautiful, vibrant woman. I wish I could be there to comfort you in person. 😘
Thank you do much Lonely I hope you had a fantastic New Years!


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:49 pm

Hello cOck Always a pleasure to see you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:50 pm

    Quoting hugz111:
    You are an amazing lady
Thank you hugz Happy New year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:51 pm

    Quoting Lostlicker87069:
    Your amazing an beautiful you will find peace.. Keep moving forward and I hope you have an amazing new year 4283369
Thank you so much lostlicker. happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:53 pm

    Quoting poloarmani:
    hope the coming year 2020 will be a great one for you peace and love
Thank you so much poloar Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:53 pm

Tytytyyytu


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:54 pm

    Quoting Aden0069:
    I hope you have a fantastic 2020! We like you just the way you are!
Thank you Aden. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:55 pm

    Quoting CrustEnsueGaius7:
    You can be whatever you want as long you truly desire it. Just be happy and joyful in the journey.
Thank you Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:57 pm

    Quoting badteacherAK:
    Funny. I see you as someone who radiates joy. To me the warmth of your smile reveals the person you are. I have seen you as someone who has sought pleasure without fear or hesitation. Shows how little I know.

    Hopefully in the new year you will find a place to radiate your beauty and seek your pleasures without fear. I wish that for you this year. Or sooner.

    Enjoy the journey and the exploration to recover who you want to be.
Thank you badteacher. I'll find my confidence again. Always a pleasure to see you. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:58 pm

Thank you Pete Hope you had a fantastic New Years!


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 5:59 pm

    Quoting URfantasyfilled:
    I do not know what happened to you, but you are still a beautiful woman with big beautiful eyes, you are sexy as hell, and the girl next door!
Thank you fantasy I appreciate you accepting my friend request. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:00 pm

    Quoting _IKanCu2_:




    ~ Forgive Past Sin*z ~
    BLeSS YUR Greatest of /\/ew /-/ope*z~
    and a
    /-/appy Better New Year
    too
    All W/-/o(\/) You Touch and are /\/ear ~





Thank you. I have to learn to accept before I can forgive. I appreciate you advice. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:03 pm

    Quoting merlot5555:
    .... life is a journey... sometimes easy, sometimes difficult.... what I have learned is that inner peace starts within... being easy on yourself enables others to be easy with you.... its the snowball effect... let it roll downhill ... it gets bigger and gathers strength ... it also helps to have good partners in play that are supportive and have very strong streaks of curiosity ... hope to hear all about your reawakening and adventures... in whatever forum they emerge...
Life is a journey. I also know I have a lot more life lessons to learn. That is the purpose of life. It is great to see you merlot. I so appreciate your insight. Happy new year to you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:07 pm

    Quoting Desir4Fire:
    Queen Janeane,
    I know I am misspelling the hell out of your name.
    It just rhymes in the phonetics ...
    Much love tho...
Lol..Its alright..but my name is Jeanie


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:08 pm

    Quoting Tall_stud1982:
    Hi how are you doing tonight ? Lovely photos !
Thank you. I'm great how are you?


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:09 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you. Happy 2020 to you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/5/2020 6:14 pm

    Quoting CortonMan:
    I know exactly how you feel. All of the confidence that I had years ago has been stripped by life and loss. Where I used to be the life of the party and extremely social, I now would rather stay at home and try to find a way to get back to myself of old. Be advice, just keep smiling as much as you can, laugh when the opportunity arises and makes sure that people earn you, and prove that they are worth you time. I have a feeling that there is something special inside of you...just believe it in yourself and others will follow!
It's funny how your mind is your worst enemy. It sounds like both of us need to learn to be so hard on ourselves. I do not want to settle due to loneliness I just want to learn to accept myself. The rest will follow. I really appreciate your kind words Corton. Happy new year to you. I hope you find your inner peace


kumswaloer3 51M
281 posts
1/10/2020 7:44 am

I wish you all the help you need to re-connect to your inner self and feel confident, beautiful, and sexy!


stevieboyinaz2 43M
26 posts
1/10/2020 7:49 am

you are amazing!! and absolutely gorgeous!!


lostboy6f 59M
44 posts
1/12/2020 8:13 pm

With those sexy eyes and that beautiful smile, how could you be lonely? 😊 Of course, there is a big difference in being lonely and being alone.


missthee 54F  
4113 posts
1/16/2020 10:01 am

When I first read this post it was the last days of the year and I was experiencing similar thoughts. It was hard for me to come up with something positive to say. Reading your words though helped as I knew I was not alone in my dark moments, and that made it ok.
Now, I don't know if that was a good thing or a bad one, to feel 'connected' in that way. It did make me think deeper about myself, and for that I am grateful that you spoke out loud and shared these difficult emotions.

Hopefully the new year will be a better one for all of us.

(off to comment on your next post)


hornyhusband1969 51M
46 posts
1/18/2020 5:04 pm

You look beautiful


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:28 pm

    Quoting kumswaloer3:
    I wish you all the help you need to re-connect to your inner self and feel confident, beautiful, and sexy!
Thank you so much sweet friend . I hope 2020 is fab for both of us.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:28 pm

Thank you so much. Happy day to you.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:29 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you for stopping by


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:30 pm

    Quoting  :

You make some wonderful points. Thank you


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:32 pm

    Quoting missthee:
    When I first read this post it was the last days of the year and I was experiencing similar thoughts. It was hard for me to come up with something positive to say. Reading your words though helped as I knew I was not alone in my dark moments, and that made it ok.
    Now, I don't know if that was a good thing or a bad one, to feel 'connected' in that way. It did make me think deeper about myself, and for that I am grateful that you spoke out loud and shared these difficult emotions.

    Hopefully the new year will be a better one for all of us.

    (off to comment on your next post)
Thank you Missthee. It has been fantastic seeing you around again. Happy 2020 to you. I hope you find the inner peace you deserve.


hotmamamm 44F  
16902 posts
1/20/2020 3:32 pm

Thank you so much sexy friend.


merlot5555 64M  
225 posts
1/26/2020 8:26 am

hey there... it tough to let it all hang out thee like that... at least you are trying to get things out instead of bottling them up... although I am not sure this is your best outlet... but with a new decade, perhaps you can find a sliver of light to begin working yourself out of your darkness...and as a plus, it's obvious you have a number of supporters here... carpe diem!


Flashhhotrod 54M
21 posts
1/30/2020 2:21 pm

Pretty hot love the pics thank you , love a real set of pictures so many fake smile


MrSears1960 59M
18 posts
1/31/2020 4:43 am

You are a very beautiful lady inside and outside, but sometimes to is best just to talk to a pro I have done it in the past and it really did help a lot. You deserve to be a happy lady and I hope you have a great year.
And did I mention you are so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Enigmaticnfun 45M
8 posts
1/31/2020 4:39 pm

Delightful


Johnxtoward1 41M
17 posts
2/2/2020 2:04 am

I am single and I’m best choice for you 🥰


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