Winter is dead
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Posted:Mar 27, 2016 7:33 am
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2016 4:37 pm
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Easter has long been my favorite day of the year. This is the day that marks a new beginning.
When I was a younger adult, following in my parents religious path, this was the day to celebrate my Saviors rising. The day that marked a new beginning, my sins were washed away and my savior had ascended into glory, and he was busy preparing a place for me there. What a fantastic day!
Several years ago, I faced a horrible life event. The unimaginable happened. Honestly, I didn't deal with it well. I held my grief and rage as a captive, or more as a guest. I stroked it. I fed it. I wouldn't let anyone try to interfere in the relationship I had with my negativity. I found comfort in my anguish. Peace in my broken spirit. I railed at the almighty, I vowed to never set foot in his holy home. My world was dark, not so much shadowy and gray, but brown. Dry. Barren.
When the next Easter came I new I needed to find some glimmer of life, for my . So I looked at it through pagan eyes. It was the celebration of new beginnings again. New life, but this time it was nature's new life. Flowers were blooming, were squealing, and laughing and riding high on a wave of bunny ears intoxication. I could be happy. Because the Earth was changing, there was new life. I couldn't seek my lords embrace, but I knew joy again.
Fast forward many years to a play date with a friend. After our play session I was lamenting. Trying to find the true joy that so many other people have.,She just stared at me while I went on and on about my miseries. Finally, she squinted and said "you need Jesus...... You don't need pussy, you don't need cock, you need Jesus...... And you know exactly where he is..... He never left you..... And you know that...and if you think you get pissed off, imagine how pissed the guy who created us gets" That was one of the strangest sermons of my life. My rowdy bi friend who drinks too much Tequila and belly dances on bar tables, telling me I need Jesus.
She was right. I've spent the last few months trying to patch my spiritual life back together. But yet, here I am. I know I'm not alone in trying to wrap my head around how to balance my sexual life and my spiritual.
I'm not sure why I'm adding this post honestly. It could be seen as a sermon. Some might think I'm looking for a pat on the back. But that's not my style. I guess I just hope that wherever you are, you can celebrate today as the day of new beginnings. Whether it's the promise of heaven or just the changing of the seasons. Winter is dead.
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Spring has sprung
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Posted:Mar 21, 2016 5:43 am
Last Updated:Mar 27, 2016 9:09 am
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Even after the very mild winter, I am so ready for spring.
I'm ready for color.
Foraging.
Fresh air.
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Dirty old men
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Posted:Mar 15, 2016 1:31 pm
Last Updated:Mar 27, 2016 9:08 am
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Today's adventure was drawing blood from a very elderly man. It went like this...
Me: have you eaten anything in the last 12 hours?
Him: Just some pussy around 2 am
Me: 
Him: 
Me:
Him:  I bet yours tastes like honey
Me: I hope I don't have to stick you more than once...
Him: oh honey, 60 years ago I'd have stuck you all night long
Me: give me your arm
Him: ouch!
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I forgot.
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Posted:Mar 14, 2016 5:13 am
Last Updated:Mar 27, 2016 9:09 am
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In my excitement over having a weekend off, I'd forgotten that every weekend off is followed by Monday.
I had a fun, relaxing weekend with my brother. We visited 20 some wineries. Here's my view of a wine tasting ..... It's kinda like being in a hands off strip club. It's a tease. "Here's a tablespoon each of 6 different wines." So you sip your samples and you maybe buy a bottle, then you get in the car and go to the next winery on the list. Repeat the process over two days and end the weekend with a slight hangover and feeling unfulfilled. It was a lot of fun though. It was great spending time with a sibling that I don't get to hang with very often. He seemed to enjoy the weekend too. I didn't embarrass him. I didn't even spit.
Now here we are. On Monday. Oh and it's raining, this really gets me down. Nothin to do but frown. Like some kind of lonely clown.
Ahh Monday you miserable bitch. I want to shoot the whole day down.
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Wining
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Posted:Mar 12, 2016 7:54 am
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2016 4:53 am
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I'm a beer and shots kinda girl. My high falutin' brother has decided I need to start acting classy. We're off on a winery tour. Pretty sure he's going to regret this.
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A Friday I can love
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Posted:Mar 11, 2016 4:59 am
Last Updated:Mar 11, 2016 3:42 pm
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I rarely get weekends off. I've never been able to get into the TGIF celebrations that others enjoy. Oh, I'm all about the tongue goes in first parties, but Friday doesn't hold the appeal to me as it does to the 9-5 Monday thru Friday crowd.
But this Friday is different. I am off this weekend! And I work a short shift tonight.
So, this one of those rare occasions that I can get caught up in the "fuckit it's Friday" mentality of the majority of workers. I can actually look forward to 2 consecutive days off. So today I'm happy it's Friday, next week I can go back to my "shut the fuck up, some of don't get weekends" comfort zone, but for today, I celebrate Friday for all it means to most of the world.
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Well this is much better
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Posted:Mar 10, 2016 12:40 pm
Last Updated:Mar 11, 2016 4:59 am
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Finished 2 classes this morning........ only one more to go.
Paid off 2 loans..... Debt free.
Weird family relationship issues resolved...... Just aaahh
Horrible situation from work .......handed over to proper agencies.
This has turned into pretty damn good day!
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What sucks about being single
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Posted:Mar 10, 2016 4:23 am
Last Updated:Apr 7, 2016 7:11 pm
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I'm usually quite content being single. Not just single, but solitary. I don't mind standing alone. Oh sure there are times it would be nice to have someone to accompany me to social functions like work parties and weddings and such. I really like being alone though. I like to come home from, and just chill. No "how was your shift?" chatter.
Just peace.
Quiet....... I crave quiet after work.
Ninety eight percent of the time I'm perfectly happy being a lone wolf.
But sometimes, usually for a few minutes a day, I really, really wish I had someone here with me. I'm in the throes of this angst right this very moment honestly.
Because
I just don't want to make my own coffee.
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Soundtrack of sexuality
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Posted:Mar 9, 2016 12:38 pm
Last Updated:Apr 5, 2016 4:54 pm
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What songs instantly get you in the mood?
For me, in no particular order:
Under My Thumb, The Rolling Stones
Fade Into You, Mazzy Star
Crazy Love, Van Morrison
Wild Mountain Honey, Steve Miller Band
Beautiful Way, Beck
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How old is too old?
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Posted:Mar 8, 2016 6:43 pm
Last Updated:Apr 7, 2016 7:12 pm
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This morning, while sitting in my car killing time between appointments, I was texting a friend and things went dirty. The topic was a stranger reaching through my open car window and touching my wet pussy. It led to a cyber quickie, or text quickie I guess. It was a great start to the day, but it's left me wondering, at what age does sex in the car become a bad idea? Do grown ups still get it on beyond the wheel? When did you last have sex in (or on) (or beside) a vehicle?
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Morning Kiss
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Posted:Mar 7, 2016 6:11 am
Last Updated:Mar 7, 2016 12:17 pm
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Of all the songs to be stuck in my head when I wake up...
"Getting late
I just can't wait
Ten o'clock and I know I gotta hit the road
First I drink, then I smoke
Start the car, and I try to make the midnight show
Get up
Everybody's gonna move their feet
Get down
Everybody's gonna leave their seat"
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Gold vs. Standard Members
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Posted:Mar 6, 2016 3:36 pm
Last Updated:Mar 8, 2016 6:34 pm
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I've seen more than a few women say they would never meet a standard member. I don't get it. Once you've paid the membership fee, you have free reign. You can send all the messages you want. You can start as many chats as you want. You rule the world here. Or so it would seem.
Standard members on the other hand, you folks have to put in a little effort to make contact. You have to figure out how to earn points or part with a few dollars if you find a member you fancy.
I personally appreciate the efforts a standard member goes through to make contact. I know it's a crap shoot, and it's like playing craps in the dark, because you can't even see profiles without paying a small fee. You are the gems, the ones willing to get creative and put in some effort to make initial contact.
I have never, and I will never, pay for a membership here. Every so often I do something that makes my views go up, and I'm giving a short free membership as AdultFriendFinder's way of saying thanks for keeping our site active.
I've also never met a gold member from here. I've only met standards. I'm not biased, I'm not saying I'd never meet a paid member, I've just found in my experience that the standards are more likely to seem sincere.
I'm not saying don't buy a membership. Everyone needs to do what makes them happy. Those of you who feel standard members are wasting their time and aren't worthy of your attention, stick with that attitude. Then I'll have less competition for the unpaid masses when my free membership runs out in a couple weeks.
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