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My Inner Turmoil About Him A Poem  

yesmamallthetime 54F  
4483 posts
6/1/2019 8:15 pm
My Inner Turmoil About Him A Poem


I felt a pang
In my chest
When he mentioned
His biggest regret.
It was that
He did not fight
To keep his marriage.

mistakes
Flirting with an ex.
Not changing sooner
Not getting counseling
Like his wife wanted.
Remarkably he and she
Have remained friends.

She has a boyfriend
Of a few years now.
He has made changes
For the positive.
His life is pretty good
All around.

He has had a few flings
In the years since his divorce.
One last summer
Who he has spoken
About fondly.
But they weren't meant
For longevity.

Then there is me.
I love his attention.
I love his care
And his kindness.
I just feel that
I will never measure up
To his ex-wife.

So now I am thinking
Should I bother?
Should I continue
To make arrangements
To meet etc?

He has assured me
He is only interested
In seeing one woman
At a time.
Which is a far cry
From some guys
I have encountered.
They jump at any woman
Who says yes
And acquiesces.

My history is littered
With bad choices.
Infatuation
And rejections
Wishes for a good time
Ways to overcome boredom.
So much disappointment.

I really like this guy
I like his demeanor
Affection and lovemaking.
I like what he gives me.
I like that he listens.
I like when he tells me
About himself
And his stories.

But setting myself up
For a heart ache
Something I have done
Time and time again
Is this just going to be
Another case?

It is a fight I will
Undertake internally
I will give little away
Of my inner turmoil.
If I can help it.

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


yesmamallthetime 54F  
11274 posts
6/1/2019 8:17 pm

Is it worth it? Is it ever worth it?

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


billyray234 57M
759 posts
6/1/2019 8:17 pm

super sad


yesmamallthetime 54F  
11274 posts
6/1/2019 8:38 pm

Yes. Thank you for reading and commenting. I hope you are having a good weekend.

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


Fuklikedogs 50M
2997 posts
6/1/2019 9:41 pm

Crossroads leading to a fork in the road.......good luck, rather hope for a good outcome for yours


yesmamallthetime 54F  
11274 posts
6/1/2019 10:07 pm

    Quoting Fuklikedogs:
    Crossroads leading to a fork in the road.......good luck, rather hope for a good outcome for yours
You are very sweet to hope for a good outcome for me. Thank you for reading and commenting.

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


author51 58F  
126189 posts
6/2/2019 12:44 am

Live in the moment my friend and take one day at a time with him.. Don't question it.. It is all worth it no matter how it turns out for you and your lover...


yesmamallthetime 54F  
11274 posts
6/2/2019 9:26 am

    Quoting author51:
    Live in the moment my friend and take one day at a time with him.. Don't question it.. It is all worth it no matter how it turns out for you and your lover...
Thank you for your comment Joy. I am not going to get the chance. It is over pretty much. Yup. He likes me, he likes me not is what happened overnight. Oh well.

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


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