" The more you know yourself , the more patience you have for what you see in others"Erik Erik "We can not become what we need to be by remaining what we are" Max RePree I have long felt different from those around me. I see the world from a unique point of view as well. Shy and quiet I never had much to say yet my brain is very active. I write stories and poems to express what I feel inside but can not say. I never seemed to "fit in" with any social groups in school so I ended up with a few close friends who love me and except me, weirdness and all. it was through one of my high school friends that I was introduced to BDSM. She has embraced the Domme side of her perality. I met, fell in love with and married a wonderful man who likes to tie me up and have kinky sex. While there is definitely nothing wrong with kinky sex..I have learned that I want more than that. I reconnected with my Domme friend from high school. Her observations and comments about me being naturally submissive struck a chord with in me. Thus began my journey of discovery. Over the past 9 years I have read books attended munches, and went to private dungeons, all to learn about myself. Everything I saw, felt, experienced was shared with my husband. There were no secrets. I have had one realtime D/s relationship that lasted two years. It ended badly and the results were that I left the BDSM lifestyle for awhile. Why am I here now? II am here to reconnect with friends I have made.I am here to learn more. I am done with hiding because it is our life experiences that shape who we are. Please understand, I am not here for a FWB, nor a D/s relationship, at least not right away. D/s may again happen for me in the future but right now I have much to learn and re-learn. Somethings about me: I love to laugh and have an excellent sense of humor. I tease and joke around playfully but I KNOW when to be serious. I enjoy conversing about many subjects. I am a deep thinker. I am passionate about the things I believe in. I am an intellegent, professional woman who needs discipline and guidance. I am not a pain slut, or a lover of pain. I believe pain is a teaching tool to teach one about their inner self. So, I may have a tiny bit of a masochist inside me. *grins* I don't "act out" just to get attention. In fact I would rather go unnoticed by Them. I don't set out in my mind thinking "hmmmm now how can I disobey today?" It just happens! It takes a firm, self disciplined, patient man to deal with me. Having said that I will also say that I have been called a smart ass and a brat. I'm not too sure what a brat is but I will admit to being a smart ass. I am no mealy mouthed, weak willed, woman. I have spirit, I have fire. I have wit. One more thing : If being sarcastic, if being impatient, if engaging the mouth before the brain is in gear, if asking and questioning everything, even You, If being bluntly honest, if having hard limits, if sometimes forgetting Your instructions, If doing any and all of the above makes me a brat..so be it! If I am not for You, so be it..back away from the submissive.

What are your favorite musicians or bands?:
The BeeGees, Guns and Roses

Have you ever had cybersex?:
Unsure/Prefer not to say

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